i was like this for a little while and then it just stopped
but i was in a really stressful situation for 3+ months and i didn't have the ability to talk to anyone online, and i had no one to talk to irl
so basically i was alone for 3 months with not much to do but watch youtube videos and just sit down and think
a little while after i got out of that situation i didn't have that anymore so that's why i'm saying that's what caused it