I regained the twenty pounds I lost, I'm addicted to masturbating to the point where it actually interferes with my normal routine, I find it difficult to focus on the little work that I have to do, I've lost interest in a majority of things I used to find entertaining, there's a girl I like that I rarely talk to and whenever I do I feel like a fool but that's just normal teenager stuff which I will get over at some point eventually, and I can't help but feel like I'm capable of much more but lack the willpower, desire, and talent to do anything other than what I do right now.