I honestly don't know. You know how old people are always upset that they have to watch their bodies decay, getting weaker every day? That's how it is with my mind, not necessarily weaker, but it becomes less and less stable. It interferes with school, work, and my social life, and I don't know what there is to be done but just sit and watch myself decay, because in a few years, childhood onset schizophrenia tends to spike up at age 18 and only grow worse with time, and my self destructive desires are only growing and I've just about lost all inhibition. It's pretty depressing actually.
