Because I'm ugly, I can't get a girlfriend. So I just compensate by pretending my pillow is my current anime girlfriend (I've had lots). Before I go to sleep I usually make out with my pillow and at one point I wasn't even washing my it. It got moldy and brown but I still hugged it and made lots of love to it. I might add that it now has a pillow case with a really ~kawaii~ anime schoolgirl on it.