I can't even begin to express how amazing it makes me feel to see all of you being so supportive.
I was afraid most of you were going to make fun of me, but this is incredible.
Reading all of your replies has brought me to tears, but they're good tears; sloppy, snotty tears of joy.
I would love to reply to and thank each of you individually, but I cannot. I will, however, address a few specific posts;
Just don't do that tumblr thing and identify as some obscure loveuality that has six others exactly like it.
Good for you, VH! I'm so proud of you for finally making this decision. I don't know you as well as I wished to, but I've been silently rooting for you for years now. :)
So, you identify as completely female now. Am I right in assuming you're straight or have you just always been bi?
Hey Doorman! It has been a while since I've spoken to you. That's so sweet of you, maybe we could play BL sometime. :)
I don't know whether you count it as "some obscure loveuality that has six others exactly like it." or not,
but I consider myself panloveual- that is, I'm attracted to people regardless of what their gender identity is.
we're proud of you dude (hope I can call you that ;~;)
Honestly, you guys could call me the manliest man of man planet and it wouldn't matter. I'm not a huge friend about pronouns.
so what does HRT actually do
HRT is an umbrella term that covers a few different things;
Antiandrogens, which prevent testosterone and dihydrotestosterone from binding to androgen receptors.
Estrogen, which I shouldn't even have to explain if you're over 13.
Progesterone, which is involved in distribution of fat, libido, appetite, skin oil, blood flow to the skin, nails, etc.
Basically, the goal is to stop testosterone from doing its job so that estrogen can take over. Once that has taken place,
testosterone production will cease, the p-spot and testes (typically) will shrink, semen production will be reduced or stop
all together and I will become sterile. As well, natural breasts will begin to grow and it will soften my skin and help
me develop a more feminine figure. Interestingly enough, if you are to introduce testosterone supplements to the system
after all of this has taken place, the supplementary testosterone will be converted into more estrogen by the body.
HRT will
not stop body/facial hair from growing, feminize my voice, change my height, emaciate my muscles,
or make my genitals magically fall off.
I've been trying to start HRT for a few months now. Unfortunately, Kaiser is a real stickler about the whole process. I took the 'exam' with the therapist, and they supposedly submitted it to their committee who apparently gets to decide whether or not I actually need HRT; and then never got back to me. I have no idea if the case is 'yes', 'no', 'no but', or if they're just taking a long time. Like I said, it's been a few months and I'm getting rather antsy about the whole thing. I could just go to another clinic for it (lots of places will do HRT with none or few prerequisites) but the medical insurance I'm under wouldn't cover it; and I'm afraid that if I lose my job or something and can't afford to keep going, things could get really bad.
That sucks :( I hope my experience will go smoothly with Blue Cross Blue Shield. Best of luck to you! I hope everything works out. :)
Holy hell it's VerticalHorizon.
Good to hear, and it's nice to hear from you. It's been so long.
Hey Miga! Long time no see, glad to see you are still around! We should play again sometime. :D
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I've done a quick stalk through VH's posts and made a compilation of his(her) photos, from 2007-2014
-Timeline snip-
That's awesome, thank you for that. It's crazy to see those pictures again and how much I've changed since then.
if it makes you feel any better your ID is 1 digit lower than mine 
We're ID siblings. :')
you're staying on the forums right?
Of course! :D
I am proud of your decision to get this love change.
I sincerely wish there were more people out there who are courageous and audacious as you to go through with their goals, plans, future, whatever you may call it. I will pray that this will turn out well and nobody in real life will persecute you.
If you ever have troubles with someone in real life, speak of it, someone will listen. Someone will help you. Some of us forumers will gladly help you, including myself. Otherwise, flow freely into society! Find yourself a good friend if you don't have one already! Shoot for the moon, if you miss, you will be among the stars of success! May Lady Fate always smile in your favor!
Good luck, best wishes.
I was lucky to have such a supportive family, I've only faced homelessness on a couple of occasions due to bad living situations,
but otherwise this process has been fairly smooth compared to others. I still appreciate the kind words though, thank you. :)
I just think that we should take the time to appreciate trans men and women who have powered
through homelessness, rejection, violence, threats of death and/or imprisonment. My plight has been a walk in the
park compared to many others. I am surrounded by a wonderful family, wonderful friends, a wonderful community, and as of
this past weekend, a wonderful girlfriend who actually understands me for once and I love her to pieces.
Again, thank you all so much for the support. Maybe I'll have a Blockland party soon! We can all hang out and build and
play some death match or something. As well, it would be a cool opportunity of you who may still have questions
to ask, maybe there could be a little Q&A for the curious.
Here's to you, forums, you know I love you all.
