Fen, I'm calling this bullstuff because I cannot comprehend one fact.
Why would you post to a forum, a forum where you have a bad reputation and a forum full of people that love to call out people's stuff, about your serious life issues? What did you expect the result being?
Cancer is not something you bring up to a random forum for a LEGO game. It's the kind of thing you keep private to people you know and trust, who aren't right now sceptical of your every post.