Everything just clicked for me (inb4blogland)

[Nonnel]

idk why you're being so aggressive lavender, the guy is trying to figure out what's going on

there can be only one special snowflake

[Ad Bot]

[ForgetLavender]

lol welp people are putting words in my mouth so im booking it out of this thread after i say what i wanted to say in private to OP

Get help ASAP, don't hide your illness from people that have to know.
When you get help, from a therapist or a doctor, be aware that they can only hold your hand through what your illness is. You have to do the work as they guide you through it.
The pills you might get have a ton of side effects, it's up to you if you want to take them. I didn't. I prefer cannabis because it makes you happy instead of numb. My ex used to take prozac and that was not ideal. (Hell I have 3 other friends that take it and same story).
If you ever have a breakdown, don't fight it alone, get help either long distance or close. As long as you are distracted.
I've personally used escapism a lot to get troubles off my mind, find some good books you would like to read, or movies you'd like to watch. Personally, I never feel as good as when I get back from the movies. It's awesome and I go to the movies for primarily that reason. Don't be afraid to go out alone.
Going for walks helps a lot too, pick some nice music (I play Passion pit) if you go on one.
If you have to deal with impulse reactions, and realize it was all wrong either directly after or a while after, explain to the person in effect what happened. This is really important, they have to know that whatever you did was influenced, then it's up to them what they'll do with it.
Oh en please refrain from long lasting impulse reactions like writing up a story or spending money. I sometimes make a purchase or write a post on a forum, realize it's totally wrong and shrug, thinking "this is an impulse reaction and I can't stop it" whilst I obviously can. (Most of this has to do with stalking my ex).
Please stop hurting yourself by the way, it will do nothing and if you ever feel like doing such a thing, find distraction, like I said. Don't hurt others that care about you by hurting yourself. No one wins.
I can't really help with the lying part, because it simply is quite vague if it's part of borderline or not.
Good luck, I'll still read replies in this thread and if you have a question about this post, PM me.

[Mr.Noßody]

Where in Connecticut are you?
I might know you.

[Cappytaino]

Where in Connecticut are you?
I might know you.

Fairfield county?

[King of the Bill]

If you actually suffer from BPD, good luck, get help, etc., there's not much more I can say that hasn't already been said.
I hate to be "that guy" but with your previous account's history, I almost wonder if this isn't also full of stuff.
I frequently type out long posts, then close the tab without hitting post; many times I have regretted my speech but seldom my silence.
On that note, I should add that (last I looked into it, which was a few years ago) BPD is frequently problematic for doctors and the like to deal with. Remember that your actions, regardless of circumstance, are still your own, and you must take responsibility for them regardless of how difficult it may be.

[ForgetLavender]

I almost wonder if this isn't also full of stuff.

By the way he seems to be ignoring help from for example me (I have it myself and I'm good friends with someone who has it too), and only responds to people who show exclusively sympathy; It makes me really suspicious that this is just attention seeking.

Edit:
but frankly i couldn't care less. i said what had to be said, and if this guy wants to whore attention on a forum, let him have at it. whatever rocks your socks

Edit:
ostuff i forgot i said i wasnt going to post here anymore oh well

[Cappytaino]

Thanks for all the suggestions, I have an appointment with my psychiatrist today and I'll just see what they can do.

[Rigel]

I can't say that I know you that much, but this sounds like it sucks a mile-long richard.

[Cappytaino]

I can't say that I know you that much, but this sounds like it sucks a mile-long richard.

the worst effect of it is that it makes having relationships very, very difficult. I haven't met one girl in my entire life that could deal with the anger and the threats because at the end of the day, those things are going to happen and I need somebody stronger than me.

[sir dooble]

I'm not trying to be. Uh, I don't think I even was, reading back on my post?
I even suggested him to talk to me, did we read the same post?

Also being a rudeass isn't a symptom either.
go home.

This talk about relationships you just had is so odd.

I've had a relationship for two years and have had effects like Folie a deux happen to me, but not at all have I gotten to be a lying dipstuff.

You literally came in here and started calling him names, or just telling him to leave. You most certainly came off as aggressive, if not as a complete prick.

By the way he seems to be ignoring help from for example me (I have it myself and I'm good friends with someone who has it too), and only responds to people who show exclusively sympathy; It makes me really suspicious that this is just attention seeking.

The only person in this thread who gave him any sort of advice was you. Don't disguise it as him ignoring help from people, also including you. You just seem offended that he stopped replying to you.

And he did respond to you. Twice, even after you were quite a richard.
You shrugged him off the second time, somehow unable to understand what he was saying despite it being crystal clear.
And it's nice that you made your comment about not posting here, only to break it for one final dig at his character.

He's replied to the majority of people who have posted in the topic, it's more coincidental that they've all been giving support/sympathy.
You really seem to be coming off as a stuff at the moment, Lavender.
And I'm not at all surprised by Nonnels comment.

Seeing as how you seem to be quite consistently mentioning your BPD or depression or all your neuroses and illnesses whenever you can.

You've brought up the topic of depression (usually yours) or your BPD at least 10 different times in the last two months.
You mentioned it like once a year for the two years before that. You've practically exploded with the topic this year.

So yeah, doesn't seem too bizarre that you'd feel in some way threatened that someone else has come along with the same illness as you. And heaven forbid that he has differing symptoms and experiences with it than you, because you do seem to be King of BPD after all.

[SWAT One]

I'm glad you found this early on in life.  It's easier to change when you're young, but much harder when you're older.

[Cappytaino]

I'm glad you found this early on in life.  It's easier to change when you're young, but much harder when you're older.

That's exactly what I've heard from my siblings I've spoken to, they said it gets harder to treat and change your behavioral patterns the longer you let them go on unimpeded.

[WALDO]

That sounds really tough dude. I can't even imagine how hard life is for you. I'm glad you're getting the help you need now and I pray that you overcome this disorder to become the person you want to be.

[The GI of MA]

yeah man get better

[Cappytaino]

That sounds really tough dude. I can't even imagine how hard life is for you. I'm glad you're getting the help you need now and I pray that you overcome this disorder to become the person you want to be.

I said it once before, but the hardest thing is maintaining any relationship with people, whether it's friends or a girlfriend or anything, because the unstable moods and extreme reactions tend to turn people away.

Thanks, it means a lot to know I'm not alone.