The best thing to do is: stop self loathing and putting yourself down publicly because it makes you look like an idiot and people will treat you like one for it
Instead of whining how life is bad and stuff, go make it better, you have friends do stuff with them or just go do something that makes you happy like drawing, you are pretty good at that
Point is: just stop self loathing i and many others loving hate seeing it, mainly because you don't have to do it in the first place
