ROUND ONEI wanted to post this anonymously, because generally posting stuff like this gets a lot of backlash on the forums.
Guys, don't hold grudges. I get in quite a few political debates on the forums and it saddens me to see people take hatred outside of that context. Just because someone has a different stance on gay marriage doesn't mean they should be treated badly in other situations, unless of course they were personally attacking people or something like that. I'm not usually on the receiving end of it, since I belong to the liberal majority, but it sucks when people like General are called idiots for no real reason.
Thanks.
theres not much i can say here because he already said whats up
One time in grade one art class, we had a project that involved us creating flags. Now back when I was younger I watched a lot of war movies. This caused me to think the the SWASTIKA was Germany's actual present day flag.
So I made a couple of flag cutouts and handed them in. The teacher is Jewish and Russian and I handed in a loving swastika.
i don't know why this is an anonymous confession, i'd be proud
Hi Sev. Shortly after summer, my life has been sort of falling apart. The reason why is because I'm moving, but I'm leaving behind a lot of people who I really don't want to leave behind. 3 years ago I came to this city Irving, TX. I hardly exaggerate when I say that my parents move me around states every grade year. This was none other than the other times I was moving, except this time would be different.
I was starting 7th grade this year. Unlike all of the other years I had been in school, I had actually made a few good friends, people who actually enjoyed being with me. It wasn't easy, I noticed some people who found me annoying or weird; it took them a while for them to accept me for who I was, so I lightened up and tried to be an actual friend for once. I don't want to make it look like I'm pitying myself, but moving every grade year since the start of first grade sucks, everyone came and went, I literally didn't know how to make any friends.
When I moved onto eighth grade, nothing changed much, I met a few more people, but I kept the same friends I had before. I started going over to some of their houses, which was my very few first times besides one of the friends I had around the neighborhood as a kid (I was their friend because our parents were both friends).
Late 2014 is when I started my freshman year. I thought high school was going to be hard, but it actually wasn't. People were actually nice, and I noticed that a lot of people didn't really care about how you looked or how indifferent you were. I met a bunch of new friends here, and I even joined a sport for the first time in my year. The new sport team that I joined was not that big, but it was just big enough for me to make a more significant number of friends. Hell, I even had a group that I could call my gang in real life. Five people, including me who I would be best friends with, hanging out all the time, like a small group or something. I've never had anything as cool as that before.
I also found out about my loveuality this year, and I learned to accept it. At school I learned to be semi-openly gay (dafuq) and most people weren't judgmental about it. Later in the year, I met a guy who had very similar interests as me. We were both nerds and we both liked geek stuff. We would play Prop Hunt on Garry's mod, and we would both chat everyday and night and talk on Steam together. I told him that I was gay, and he said that it was cool with him. I really should have known better to put my heart on the line, but I really never met anyone like him, and I thought he was the best guy ever. I sort of had a tiny crush on him, which I've been talking about with one of my friends for a couple of months. She tried to encourage me to ask him out, which I didn't do until a few months when I finally grew a pair to do so. soooo, that night, I hint around asking him out via text, until I finally spill it.
He was gay too, which made me happy, thinking I had a chance, but then he said that he liked somebody else however. I won't go over much about how sad I was, since like I said before, I should have known better than to put my heart on the line. He said that he still liked me as a friend though. But.. we never really talked much after that. I never mentioned it to him, but all that stuff that we did back then together seemed to have just faded away. I can hardly remember the happy times we had back then..
It was the near end of school when I started getting more close with my friends (not that way). I actually went over to houses more, stayed more afterschool with my friends, and got out of the house more. We would start telling deep stories, ones that would even make some of us cry.
So, when I found out at the end of the year that I had to move, because my dad couldn't find a job in the stupid city, I hated my parents so damn much. There was literally no way I could convince them otherwise, they were too focused on moving to listen to me. I hate how they would just make me move after 3 amazing and emotional years with people. We'd only be moving to a city that was in the same state, and they said I'd still be able to talk to them (which I would) but I couldn't explain why I didn't want to move.
I told my friends about it, which they were really sad about. Hell, on the last day of school, I threw a goodbye party with them, and all of them cried when it was uh, time to go.
I'm not sure what else to say so I'll skip forward to now.
Yesterday, I lost a friend. I had been texting her ever since the start of summer, and day by day she wouldn't text me as much, until today. She said "hey dude, i know we've been friends for a long time, and dont take this the wrong way but, maybe its time to move on. we can still be friends, but you should make other friends, really. im sure our paths will cross again one day"
And that's the reason why I didn't want to move. The reason why I didn't want to move any of the other times before. I'm scared of losing my friends, my friends getting bored of me and not wanting to talk to me anymore. i dont even feel like texting any of my other friends anymore, because what if they stop texting me too? the guy who I previously mentioned liking, i texted him on the last day of school saying that i'd miss him and we could talk over the summer, well he didn't reply. in fact, i texted him 6 more times over the next week, and still no response. the sad thing is, it says that he saw my texts, he just never responded.
so i guess that's just it. by the time summer is over, the majority of my friends will stop seeing me, or i'll lose all of my friends and never see them again.
i know the story seems fractured in some ways, but it's actually really long, and i'd take up 20 pages of paper if i went into a bit more detail. this is just the gist of it.
anyways, yeah.. my life is falling apart.. what do i do?
Moving and losing friends is hard. But you need to understand why your family is moving, Texas is a great place to get a job (even if its not as nice a place to live in), it's businesses pay a lot while the housing is generally cheap. At least, when I was there. Your mother and father are moving so that they can keep up all of your lifestyles, and keep a good amount of income.
But none of that really matters to you does it? The friends is what made you happy, not the money. I can understand that. I've been in America since October last year. Beforehand I was in the Philippines, and I had stuff. No actual items, just stuff. The only thing that made it bearable were the friends I made, and I had to leave them to come here and have a better life.
Down the road you're still going to be hurting, but the girl that said to move on is probably the most keen on this situation. Long distance relationships, even friendships, are hard to do unless everyone uses a messaging program and is on at the same times. You're just going to have to let go of your old friends and move on to try and get new ones, making new experiences in the new world you're in. It'll be tough, but it has to be done, and you'll be happier once it is done. Don't dwell on what you've lost, it'll simply make everything worse.
i secretly have a giant crush on Donnie
who the forget is donnie
i want to forget maxwell
congratulations maxwell apparently someone wants your butt
