put this into perspective, you live in a life where you dont face the major struggles of life which people have in third world countries
your life is loving great compared to them.
like I said, since you don't, nor care to understand, go elsewhere.
while he has a point, it could be worse, I know how you feel. you think that if you kill yourself it will make things better for those around you and you wont have to deal with the stuff anymore. It's not like that though.
there are really good programs for things like this and they will get you feeling better. Someone else may know more about getting admitted