i honestly don't even know what to say. he was such a good person, and much like every other Self Delete victim, he didn't seem to have anything in particular troubling him at all. he was succesful, had friends and generally just seemed content about his life.
on sunday, he went out and never came back. yesterday we found his twitter account which contained lots of messages hinting towards Self Delete, and today, two policemen came to our house and told us the bad news. my mother has been crying nonstop and this is the first time in years, maybe ever, that i've seen my eldest brother cry. we went to visit him at the morgue and saw his corpse, which was pretty disturbing
he left us the code to his laptop which contained a Self Delete note which was meant to make it absolutely 100% clear that he took his own life.
i don't know what to do. i wasn't really planning on posting this thread at all because i'd feel like an attention whore but i need to share this with people. at first i took the news pretty well, didn't cry or anything because i already suspected it (the tweets were pretty self-explanatory), but now, as i'm typing this, i just feel empty inside. i watched shows with him at night and it was fun. my nighttime friend is gone forever and as the policemen took us to the morgue, i just sat in the backseat of their car, hoping that this was all a dream and that i would hear my annoying phone alarm in a few seconds. every hour the realization of his permanent death shoots into my mind and it's incredibly unsettling
so yeah, i'm kinda down in the dumps but i'm not gonna let it get to me too much, i'm just going to accept it as quickly as possible and move on with my life.
R.I.P. Adam Zomer
27-07-1993 - 27-07-2015 (fairly sure he actually planned for this to happen on his birthday)
