about 2 years ago i almost got ratted by someone and in a panic attack, managed to delete critical files for the RAT itself
it was great because it was disguised as a program to remove RATs, and me being dumb opened it to find that it didn't do stuff
somehow it forgeted up and placed the files that were needed to connect to me on my empty external harddrive
i deleted them
i used to really panic about RAT's for some reason idk why
also around the end of last year i used to have something wrong with me where i would remember something eerie if i looked at a certain object and it felt like someone was watching me at all times
constantly giving me the urge to puke and me feeling tired after it happened