look people are arguing oh no lol
I started typing up a huge couple paragraphs when I realized I was only at a quarter of what I wanted to say so now I'm just going to summarize my experiences and thoughts
- I was loosely raised as a protestant reformed Christian in a family who never really cared/cares about what I do/think in a town with a church on every other corner, although I was never a consistent church-goer and rarely attend any church nowadays(once a year maybe)
- I am highly objective and am able to see things from an array of different viewpoints under many different scenarios and enjoy doing so: I see questioning even my own 'religion' as something God would want me to do. Sure, He wants us to have unwavering faith in Him, and that's really all you need, but He did not give us free will just to have us be blind slaves
- I became agnostic at a young age and stayed that way until I experienced a 'miracle' of sorts at my lowest point in life and found my way back to Christianity(yeah ik "so quick to believe in a time of crCIA, huh?" and all that bullstuff)
- I believe in the big bang as it corresponds with the Bible
- I support string theory(as underdeveloped as it currently is) as it corresponds with the Bible
- I've prayed in tongues and been around/taught others who've done it as well. As I currently see it, I am unable to find a suitable anti-religious explanation for it and the effects it has had on others and myself
- I've experienced 'exorcism' and felt the positive changes after it. Demon 'possession' is far more common than one might think and in like 99.999% of cases it's nothing like in the movies. I was HIGHLY skeptical towards the concept and idea of actually doing it, but after it the issue I was experiencing with myself which was caused by a demon was abruptly and awkwardly ended immediately. I say "awkwardly" because I thought it was something I'd need a lot of time to fix, if it ever was going to be fixed. Cannot find an explanation for that one either, other than a placebo effect type of thing, yet the experience was too intense to justify that sort of reasoning
- While I'm at it, I'll throw in this: I believe homoloveuality is a good example of a possession; demon(s) bound perhaps by a generational curse is/are handed down from parents unto offspring and have the effect or whatever of making your kid gay af. They, like all other possessions, are nullified upon death and by no means does being gay mean you're surely headed to hell. I'm not 100 percent sure on this topic, but I also don't have too big of an issue with gay marriage to receive legal benefits, but a gay marriage under God? Unacceptable, as such a marriage requires consummation to have the couple become one in the flesh, and you can figure where I'm going from there
I have more but the whole reason I went with bullet points over my essay was because I didn't want to type a lot lol stuff woops looks like i typed a lot anyway oh well
overall, I am not sure if I would have been and be "happier" in my life without my faith in Christianity, but I do feel as though it would be easier. Things got more complicated than I'd wanted. I'd like to finish by saying that it is more so through my experiences than supporting scientific evidence and facts that I find myself unable to never believe in Jesus and God