Author Topic: Feeling weird man  (Read 598 times)

Like lately idk man.

My life is honestly pretty damn swell. I live in a lovely place, I have a beautiful sweet lady, I get mad love from my fam and the block. I have a good job, and I'm gonna get a better one.

I got mothaloving beautiful waterfalls in my back loving yard.

Seems like I still have this fog hanging over me though. stuff hasn't always been good, and never have I had this much "stance potential" to succeed, but I feel depressed about just.. human condition bullstuff.
I worry about things too much and I have trust issues I guess. But it's like I'm just waiting for things to get stuffty. I fully loving disengage from life sometimes and just want to be miserable alone. I'm honestly not sure what to think about the whole situation.

I feel kinda crazy more often than I feel comfortable. It bugs me out to have almost exactly what I always wanted and feel like I need to run from it or make myself disappear.

I'm not about to blow my brains out but sometimes I really feel like I welcome death. It's the love I receive from others that causes me to be responsible about my life, as nothing else seems to.

I'm trying to keep on but stuff is tough. I always wanted to be a lover, not a fighter. I have a lot more love than I have fight.

over and out blf

Try speaking to your loved ones about this. Maybe they can help you.

I read this as "Feeding weird man".

Anywho, talk to your family as long as they won't admit you to the hospital right off the bat.

Try to find a good pasttime to. I got into Skateboarding because I had an old one lying around that I never used. Before that I just played games, ate, slept and browsed the forums it was eventually driving me nuts lol.

Don't off yourself or harm yourself or whatever, you're a lucky guy because he actually has pretty much anything he wants.
« Last Edit: October 28, 2015, 06:53:05 PM by Theepicman »

I got mothaloving beautiful waterfalls in my back loving yard.

Feel weird now?
« Last Edit: October 28, 2015, 08:37:19 PM by Meta_KnightX »

I remember for a while I was constantly mistaking you for Thorfin back when he was alive. Don't verify my doubts.

Anyway, I've been having a lot of issues with life in general too. My parents (particularly my mom) really want me gone because all I do is sit in my room or else I'm out at class or work. However, an entire month's paycheck at my current part-time job where I make $0.15 less than minimum wage is not enough to pay rent even just one time, and I still have necessities, phone bill, and insurance to pay. I literally do not have the time to work full time and continue getting good grades at community college without feeling totally overwhelmed. I've been staying up into the wee hours of the morning every single day working on school as it is and then when I oversleep and can't empty the dishwasher because I need to run to class/work, my mom starts throwing fits. Plus, my car is constantly having issues. It seems to be on hiatus at creating new problems right now, but I already need brake lines and tires done before winter now and it continues to have issues with the engine running. Just yesterday, I was driving along and the engine shut off. Luckily the stop light ahead was green so I just coasted through the intersection before pulling over, but the issue simply cannot keep happening.

So my issue is that I have so many issues. Get better soon, sir.