i don't really want to post here, but i kind of want to say something that's kind of important.
truthfully, i don't know what the forget is going on with me. in reality i have crippling social anxiety, hence i can't talk to people about what the hell is going on with me right now. thinking about talking to someone else about my problems almost gives me a panic attack. due to this, it just builds up inside me waiting till it's limit (like my post today). i really regret saying anything afterwards.
not asking you to sympathize for me, but this is sort of the only theory i can work out.