I know that research is entertainment, but I've used it for so long it's the only way my brain knows since I've never had love.
Dunno what other ways you think there are to fulfill your loveual urges. Either you jerk it or you forget it and if you can't do one you do the other, it's not like there's something wrong with you if you jerk it because you can't have love instead.
Honestly speaking it's the quantity that's an issue, not the act itself, and even though 5 times a day is pretty excessive you're still a teen so just learn some willpower instead of abstaining completely. Being unable to get it up at times is probably quite natural when you're jerking off as much as you do, psychologically speaking there's no reason for you to get an erection if your loveual urges are satisfied at that point in time.
TL;DR: You're overreacting, though it's apparently too late to do anything about it now. GG
