I don't usually talk about my problems on the internet but I may as well since I'm not the only one who does that stuff and get ready for a huge amount of loving text.
I am currently in one of the worst schools possible full of mad kids (well it's east London so its not a surprise) I have to deal with girls with bitchy attitudes, people who think they are the toughest guys possible, people that are really depressed, people that are obsessed with something I mean all sorts of people its high school. A while back I made a topic on how I was really anti-social, well nowadays I've made new friends and formed a small group and I'm not as anti-social as I used to be but I am having issues with a lot of other stuff. First of all from august 2012 to august 2015 I had left the UK to the US, I met a lot of kids that where also having problems but they didn't have bad attitudes and you could easily be friends with them and all that, every day after school in the US me and my friends would hang out to 6 PM. It was a lot of fun but meanwhile here in this country no one does anything after school and all I can do after school is talk to people before their bus arrives. Another problem is all these "Tough guys" or "Badmans" always talk to these bitchy attitude girls during lessons and they shout out loud for attention, they make fun of people who aren't on their "popular" level and are overall jackasses
Another thing about the school is the fact that it is mixed with religions of Jews, Muslims and Christians. Its also mixed with Africans, Pakistanis, Brits, Indians, Russians, Romanians, Bulgarians, French, Germans, Vietnamese and Polish people. Its not really about what nationality you are its what about these popular kids want, there are a group of Jews that hate a group of Africans and a lot of others. There are a group of Anime girl fans that hate a bunch of bitchy girls. Seems like no one can get along in this battlefield. And all these so called "Popular kids" go to parties to smoke weed and get drunk, well I'm not gonna generalize because I never go to these type of parties but that's all I hear about these parties because people are always mentioning them out loud
On the weekends I'm alone and I do nothing, before I used to have someone to talk to but I'll get to what happened to that someone soon. I feel like a very depressive person when I am alone and I feel like I'm dying inside and that I'm falling apart, when I was in the US I could hang out with friends on the weekend or go outside to the b-ball courts or the soccer/football field and meet people, have fun, etc. Here in the UK I can't do anything, all the parks are full of utter mad people that smoke weed and do nothing and there are actual nice people but unfortunately they are foreigners who can't speak English, I have nothing against them but it sucks that I can't speak to them because we have our own languages. All my friends are lazy and rarely go anywhere, all they do is sit at home and play games and all that. And I'm alone and I just sit at home and do nothing other than go on my PC
Now let me talk about this someone I talked to. She went to my school and she was a very good looking girl so I decided to start talking to her by text and we started talking in October and from there we spoke to each other every single day and we had the same interests and all that but the only thing I wasn't interested in that she was was anime. This girl did nothing but watch anime all the loving time and I mean ALL the time, she wanted me to get interested into anime and she told me to watch it. I had barley any time to watch anime because I was either busy, making videos, writing, playing games and all that stuff. She really did not like the fact that I wasn't watching anime and sometimes she would tell me things like "You have X amount of mins to watch Tokyo Ghoul or I'm gonna spam you Free pics". I have nothing against anime fans or anime and in fact I'm a fan of anime myself its just its not my loving fault I'm always busy. So this girl told me she had a giant crush on my friend but this thing was getting out of hand. While I was in NYC my friend had told me that she was constantly obsessed with him and that he had to decline many insta requests, facebook requests and he had to reject her multiple times face to face.
She had been rejected by my friend many times that he doesn't even know how many times and that is something I have never heard or seen in my life before. Because of this my friend told multiple people and all these popular girls and boys started bullying her and they still are bullying her, a bunch of guys are also bullying her and even some of my friends are and sometimes they tell me "Yo should I bully that girl?". She told me everything about the bullying and she utterly hates school to death and even her own friends make fun of her. She told me that shes extremely anti-social and rarely talks, at the beginning of December her crush problems where continuing to get out of hand and she told me to do her a favor and that favor was to tell my friend if he had liked her. I was a bit of a fool and I decided to tell him (forgot to mention before I asked him I didn't know much of the situation between her and him) if he had known who she is and he told me that he really does not like her at all and that she has attempted to ask him out many times. So I tell her that I did this and I show her proof, guess what? she tells me "You've made my bad day worse, don't talk to me, I might not forgive you don't get your hopes high"
So I text her a bit to see if she had forgiven me and she didn't respond she just looked at the texts but didn't respond. Yesterday I told my mates the situation and we decided that enough was enough and it was time to speak to her face to face. I embarrassed her in front of her friends and I acted in a way I don't usually act, I was shouting and I was angry. I eventually said sorry to her but I told her not to blame everything on me and it turns out her bad day was that she had a lot of personal issues. Now she doesn't text me like she used to, not a single "Hi" text, nothing. She doesn't like my IG pics like she always used to and she is going through a lot of stuff
I apologize for my over use of swear words but I am going mad, I don't know what to do and if you are from my school and you're reading this then I'm sorry but I am really sad at the moment. I can't get good advice from anyone and I need a lot of help. Recently I can't make any videos because of all this stuff I have to deal with. Just can someone tell me what I really need to do?
