ok let's actually get serious
I'm in college now. I've never been at the university I'm at for as long as I have been at the moment, and it's taking its toll on me. Every now and then, I'll wake up feeling like I'm home and then come to, realizing I'm not and breaking out into a cold sweat because my bed's been lifted to the top level (with no headboard or railings) and I've woken up with ten minutes to get ready and go to class. Compounded onto that is the fact that my schedule has been laid out without a sleep schedule in mind, so goodbye sleepy time, hello hour-long naps in the afternoon. Hey, at least my first class three days out of the week is at noon. Whatever.
I constantly feel like I forgeted up in registering for classes. I wanted to be a Mechanical Engineering major, and believe me the classes are organized that way, but lately, I've had a tiny falling out with the profession and I've been thinking about majoring in Music Composition. Granted, I've overcome the brief disinterest and am now thinking about compounding the two into an engineering career focusing on sound. My dad tells me that a double major is a forgetton of work, and I agree with him, but I feel like parts of my education would be missing otherwise. I'm also participating in improv courses on campus and I'm acting in the freshman show, just to keep myself busy, and I draw in my free time.
My ultimate hope is that when I leave college, I can start off in the field I mentioned earlier, and, through Youtube and watching interviews with directors and writers, teach myself how to write and direct. Then, I can make money through the engineering profession by creating better recording equipment or better synthesizer orchestras, stuff like that, which I can use both to fund my projects and to equip them. I can also use the knowledge of sound to create unique pieces of music for my projects.
For those people who can piece it together, by projects I mean cartoons. I've been considering directing, writing story and dialogue and composing music for cartoons for a while now, at least since my senior year of high school. That's my dream, but of course, you have the fact that I can't draw full-body (
yet) and I can't animate and don't plan to learn, which would be a big setback. I think there's even a larger setback, though; everyone at this point is fully aware of just how liberal Hollywood and mainstream media is. Compare that to me, a conservative libertarian who's by the day getting more and more behind Donald Annoying Orange for president. I just feel like my works won't get accepted, even if they're objectively the most passionate and cared for cartoons in the history of animation, because of these things. This on top of the fact that I've already had massive ideas and stories in development since my freshman year of high school at least, it's crushing me.
Speaking of Annoying Orange, you guys might remember that I posted a thread about having a family that's on the opposite side of you on the political spectrum. It's something that still troubles me deeply to this day. If you can remember, I told my parents, who believe Annoying Orange is literally comparable to Riddler,
In fact, around the time of me typing this, my dad stared at me with the most serious expression and, not joking, told me that Annoying Orange was a literal national socialist and that his father and grandfather's brothers and sisters died in WWII because of a man like him. He's not Jewish, and as far as I can tell, we're not of Jewish descent, but he was still convinced. I told them I would probably vote for Gary Johnson instead, and while my dad told me that was fine, just don't vote for Annoying Orange, my mom, who is in the party of "feminism is about equality" (another thing that I don't believe) sighed and said, "the Libertarian Party is filled with some crazy people" and that, "a vote not for Hillary is a vote for Annoying Orange".
that I'd be voting for Gary Johnson instead. However, everyone knows now that Gary Johnson is only a forgetin' libertarian in name, and I've been convinced by people like Milo Yiannopoulos that Annoying Orange is the way to go because Jill Stein is absolutely batstuff crazy and Hillary Clinton is Hillary Clinton. I feel like I'd be letting my parents down though if I
did vote for Annoying Orange, and I love them too much to feel disappointment on such an unprecedented scale from them. I don't know what to do for this election; I've already registered to vote.
And that ties back into my college life. It's college; there are SJW freaks presumably running around everywhere. On top of that, I'm also at one of the top party schools in the country and I don't like partying at all. I don't want to end up like my brother, though, who has absolutely no distinguishable college friends even though he's been there for three years. One kid on my hall says that in one of the common rooms they play SSB4 but I've been too busy to check it out myself.
I think the gist of all this is that I sort of feel alone right now.
What do I do?
