i guess some of you knew what happened last night, i posted a thread for my hatred for humanity. it was mostly posted out of anger and jealousy. you see, i have trust issues. the people i thought were my "friends" weren't my friends at all, they were users. i was always looking for someone to trust but never could find one. i also believe my loneliness has turned be a bitter, misanthropist. when i wrote the post, it was just to release anger. but instead it built up more anger. i apologize for my actions. i also apologize for the post in hodot's post and say "you should've let him do it", i don't why i posted it. it just cause more problems. if you still have no remorse for me after reading this, then thats fine. not looking for sympathy. i'm posting this because i was wrong. i know people will not trust me after this but i hope we can all move on.