Breaking up is never an easy thing, even if you just got out of a toxic relationship. I can understand you still have feelings for her, but don't worry, time will heal you. The first few months will be painful probably, but I'm sure you will reclaim your life from the memories of her.
The best thing to do would be going with the flow. If you feel crap, then allow yourself to feel crap. Bottling up your feelings does no good for you. But you should look forward to the future as well. You are probably quite young, so there will be plenty of things to look forward to.
Also, it's understandable to feel really stuff after the first break up. It's always the first time that hurts the most. But eventually you'll get better.
Regarding verbal abuse: it's always a big no if you get abused by your partner. Whether it is physical or verbal - it's not acceptable. You seem to have dodged a bullet there. The silver lining is now you know what red flags you need to look for before committing yourself to a relationship.
