So, over the course of my life I've only had 1 crush I've never told about. The rest are either fictional (aside from Curie) or I've told my secret to. And, over the course of my life so far, I've had 6 crushes IRL, and others that are fictional but forget those ones.
The first one happened in fourth grade while I was living the worst three years of my life in California. At the end of the third year, I told all my friends of how I'd be returning to where I belonged. They all said their goodbyes, but a friend of the crush and I was trusted as a relay. After i got all my yearbook signatures, and was about to leave them forever, I told this person about my crush and trusted her to be a relay. I've not spoken with those two since.
The next one happened in 6th grade, where I told a nice girl that I had a crush on her. She (somewhat) had feelings on me, and so we both knew that. But then, she wanted to date. I went along, not really knowing much about dating but I felt as if I was dragging her down in a sense. She broke up with me in 7th grade (fortunately,) and we've always been awkward when we look at each other in the halls.
The next two happened in 7th grade, where there was a girl, and i was in one of her classes. We talked, really got along, and I told her. She didn't feel the same but eh. By this point I had no dignity left. By the by, I still am good friends with her even though she's moving soon. The second one in 7th grade was a nice, tall girl. Me and her were at a table in Spanish, and her BFF was there as well. I'm p sure I told the BFF first about my crush and then revealed it to the girl, and she (of course) didn't feel the same way. I'm still good friends with the girl and her BFF to this day as well.
The final crush I'll be talking about started developing (like a tumor) in 5th grade, but has still stayed by my side (like a scab) until now. She just had a really, really positive attitude that I needed in my life, being the depressed 4-friend having cunt I was. I told one of my friends of the semi-crush I had on her and she told the crush that I wanted to compliment her hair, but was too shy to say anything. Even though it wasn't explicit, I think the crush got what I was saying. by the by, this one happened today.
TL;DR: i have no dignity rip
P.S. ur in denial my brother