I don't know what you're apologizing for, you're doing whatever you want on your own server. This is typically a stuffty excuse but in all reality OP isn't doing anything harmful. The people he permabanned are both idiots and from what I could tell from the other drama you had a bunch of people just doppleganging you for 'muh furry!'. You don't owe anyone an apology, the crybabies who are your moderation team do.