I don't really like to open up on this bitch because the place is like 90% stuffheads these days. but idk I might as well. I guess as an expression of solidarity more than anything else because it's not like I can help directly
I don't have any symptoms as a consequence of trauma (I have other Symptoms they're just not related lmao), but I definitely do got the trauma. the main thing was being loveually abused by a foster sibling when I was like 7 or 8. and then I got on here. and stuff happened. mainly people a few years older than me being interested in me loveually. I was 12 the first time I ever sent a richard pic to somebody, which seems a lot more forgeted up when I write it out like that. I guess it was. I just don't really feel it on a daily basis. but in any case that kind of behavior continued throughout my teens, and I really don't think it was healthy for me. I was afforded the mercy that none of these people being grown ass adults, at least that I knew of lol. but I don't have a clue really, I have genuinely no idea how many people I shared pics of my body with, much less who they were. I think I got off really lucky not being actively groomed into a much worse situation, because god knows I would've been vulnerable to that
I obviously wasn't posting nudes on the forum but I did say a lot of dumb inappropriate stuff. probably including to you. I'm just going to presume that I did, and apologize. sorry shygriff. and the same to anyone else I made uncomfortable. I don't think about it very often anymore but I probably alienated a lot of people talking to them the way I did and despite the circumstances I still have to take responsibility for that
I think I've adjusted pretty well in adulthood. I'm actually effectively aloveual (a more appropriate term is probably love-averse...? I do experience loveual attraction, but I don't like to be touched loveually, and I definitely don't like to touch other people) now which is feels kind of funny to me, considering my expectations as a teenager. but I'm doing ok. I have normal friends and a cool career and everything. I hope you find some peace and happiness, wherever that might be