The old thread went off a tangent but this is leading off of the same scenario.
http://forum.blockland.us/index.php?topic=42248.0Days pass and we are all just friends again. Nothing to report.... but if that were honostly the case then I would not make a new topic for this.
Drama 1 isn't actually about me, I just am forced to take part in it:Flashback to last year: A friend that (Misa) introduced me to along with (Lolliet) was a short anime fan girl, (Light), who was cool and all but I never was interested in (don't jump ahead here and assume stuff please).
Onward to last Friday's dance, and I see (Light) dancing with this some random thing. I say thing because at the time I could not tell if it was a flat-chested girl with a boy's haircut, or an
extremely feminine guy. It kept giving me looks so at that point I was wondering if that made me gay. Fortunatley it didn't; it was a girl...
Drama 2 Back to me:So (Light) figures out that I liked (Lolliet). After a while she says she is gonna teach me how to flirt and such. Enough time has passed that I managed to do this amazing talent I have at getting over girls and still thinking of them as only friends afterwards, telling myself it can't ever happen and that they dont like me in that way over and over until I beleive it. Anyways, (Light) hasn't really taught me anything, aside from being less whiney, not that I couldn't have deduced that on my own. The lack of... well... teaching kinda bugged me... but I suppose I shouldn't learn from someone who has worse problems than I do:
Drama 1 again... try to keep up here:So I am in PE with (Light) when she tells me she was very embarrased. Appearantly in the girl's locker room she made an idiot of herself infront this random girl at the dance that had been giving me weird looks. This random girl who, appearently, (Light) had a crush on.
Note: I have never been in this situation before. I do know that almost all of the people I hang out with are gay or bi, but most of them are girls, so this doesn't bother me nor was it much of a surprise. I just never saw that gay/biness being... in progress, so to speak. So I ask kinda what she meant until I finally understood about her liking the girl... ummm I can't really think of a name for the new person... I'll just call her (Mello). So anyways, she tells me that she has had a crush on (Mello) for a while, but never was able to talk to her, and kept making an idiot of herself infront of her. I ask that if she can help me with being socially inept, why doesn't she just ask (Mello) out. Well it turns out (Mello) has a girlfriend already.
Insert moment of "wut" here. Aside from that, (Light) was still worried about being stupid infront of her. Now I think, though (Mello) has a girlfriend already, she may like (Light) as randomly one day out of the blue (Mello) comes over to where we usually hang out. Just chilling or whatever, something I noticed though is that dispite, (Light) being more shy than I am ever, (Mello) kept trying to bring her into the conversation or like just play around or stuff with her. Ummm...
Drama 2, I know how much you nerds like f/f action, but this is the main reason I came to post here:So if you weren't captivated enough by (Light)'s troubles to forget, I have the ability to make myself not like a girl. I did this a long time ago with (Misa). Though I still kinda like her, its really like, I am not gonna go buy her a $40 bracelet for her birthday or something (WHICH I loving DID) or freak out when she repays me by ignoring me for two weeks (WHICH SHE loving DID.... which is the reason I made myself not like her... I mean honostly, if she doesn't even like me enough for say thank you... well she said thank you, but it was like she barely cared... or I thought... I should end these parentheses now as I am actually getting back on topic). Today I find out something that bugs the stuff out of me. (I was considering replacing s*** with crap, but I found the current word too fitting). Anyways, according to one of my and (Misa)'s friends, (Misa) likes me. I honostly didn't beleive it, and still have my doubts. "It would explain some things, such as at the dance, her offering to dance with me a bit instead of her friend. Also why would the person lie to me? Maybe just to see me make an idiot of myself... but I don't even like (Misa) anymore! I made myself not like her, so why should I care if she likes me? Especially when she doesn't bother showing any hints of it! Why the hell did her friend tell me this!" <-- basically what is going on in my head. What irks me a bit is that I was told this by the same friend who was the first person to deduce that I liked (Lolliet). Which brings me to my next point: Everybody thinks I like (Lolliet). I don't. I honostly don't think I ever did. I went through a thing of kinda liking (Lolliet) a while ago (refer to last topic). Most people think I like (Lolliet). (Misa) probably thinks I like (Lolliet). This also make me think that (Misa) doesn't actually like me. The biggest problem I have with this is that I care. entrepreneur in said I don't like either, and I want to agree with him to an extent at this point. But If I dont like (Misa) then why would I care if she likes me? I also feel like an idiot for bringing up the (Lolliet) thing or being so transparent that others were able to sense my momentary crush on (Lolliet). Again, the thing that bugs me most about this is that I care at all.
AmendumWhatever... according to (Light), (Misa) doesn't like me. I honsotly am not surprised, I am just wonder why the hell the random person would tell me this.
