I understand.
The system in israel is very forgeted up when it comes to teens as I mentoned.
But rughugger, I only knew the girl for two weeks and that was for barely 2 hours.
I guess I understand what the responsbility this is,
I guess that when I had a hard emotion of rejection from a girl(not the one mentioned here) that liked me but didn't want to be with me because she still wants her ex I was devestaed,
Because it happend one week before this occation on my birthday.
I took it really hard but tried to get up becuase I allways was determened when it came to girls.
So Yes, I came to that outing that day hoping to find a girl I can meet and maybe have more of a relationship then being friends.
And after Another friend met me with her I really wanted to try and know her because I wanted something to last, Something real you know?
So we talked and then we kind of kissed and then I did the dumbest thing ever.
Out of alchol or not I don't know but I was dumb enougth to ask that girl if she will give me a blow job.
And now we stand here.
I understand what I did wrong
Its not the alchol
Its me.
I should have never been such an idiot and reacted like that
But when you get rejected so many time in many diffrent ways you take it preety hard.
and there more to it.
I went to this club and these outings in gereral with my best friend.
He had good looks and it kinda forgeted up alot.
Because of his soo called good looks girls from there kept ignoring me and just went his way.
And the harder thing is when I get to meet a girl and know her for some time, I meet her up with my best friend and she acts like he is her best friend and starts ingnoring me.
After all of that that I met him with the club and the people I get kicked out.
Its not easy.
But ironicly? that day he wasn't with me on the outing.
To sum it all up I guess This mistake came from jelousy.
And now I loving hate myself beaucse I just realised that.