@Taboo:

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I told her, that I really, really like her and that I even had some plans for us yet she refused me like a cold old fish.
I don't know what she wants. I know what she likes, weird things, but not what she wants..
I really told her anything that a normal girl would probably love to hear yet she kinda ignored it.
Maybe I'm doing something wrong..
The thing is, there are millions of mothers with daughters that I can have. No need to worry about this one girl but my god damned human feelings, hormones and my emotions. They make me so angry that she refused me, even if my brain loving knows that I don't care.
If a girl wants me. Great. I accept. If she breaks up with me; not my problem. If a girl doesn't want me; not my problem.