Go ahead and kill yourself Kap because from what i'v heard you're serious.
I don't feel sorry for you either, this is loving absurd. I'm baffled as to why you're being such a drama queen.
Edit: I don't want to come off as a richard, but, are you KIDDING me? You're going to kill yourself and you're telling that to people on the internet?
Sigh, please. I don't want you to kill yourself but this isn't worth it. I've damn near lost all hope for you.