Something is seriously wrong with my work ethic. No matter how hard I wish to, I simply cannot complete a project I start. I've been playing Blockland for several years now, but I don't think I have ever finished a large build as intended in the retail version. Even the build that I got into MotE with two and a half years ago isn't done. I start a project in Flash, and it never gets more than half done. I begin reading a book, and I don't get to the end. When I had lots of homework, I would just stare at it for hours, writing a few sentences now and then. Even academically easy things were difficult to simply work on. I have noticed that, when I get the urge to stop, it's because I feel like there's so much left to do and I don't want to do it now. This happens less so with books, but with other projects where I have to write or create or whatever, I get a defeatist attitude and give up.
Things were far better when I was younger. I could finish what I started, and I never had problems doing homework. Even when I was playing Blockland at twelve years old (in RTB1), I could start and finish things. I even did a school project in Blockland, creating a realistically structured colonial era ship that people could tour around using my laptop.
Recently, after an extremely hard freshman year of high school, I was diagnosed with ADHD. The problem is, I am told that it usually appears when you're around five years old, not when you're fourteen. On top of that, the medication I am prescribed is an amphetamine, which as far as I can tell does not help me concentrate but instead just makes my heart beat at an increased rate and makes it impossible to relax.
I don't know if this is just a stage in my life, or if it's a serious problem. Some people say I lack self discipline, others say that's just the way I am. Just wondering anyone's thoughts on this forum.
This took me around five minutes to type, and I'm already getting bored.
