Okay, I think it is well known that I'm insecure and overall just a whiny little bitch, i can't help it really, it's in my genes, I'm born with it.
If you don't know I have OCD, which is when someone has obsessive thoughts that bring anxiety, usually it has people doing rituals to relive it. More specifically I have HOCD, when a person has intrusive thoughts about being gay. (Some gay people have it about being straight, the illness can affect people of all loveualities) I'm going to be as clear as I can when I say I am not gay, I'm 100% certain. I never had these thoughts before this and I always thought of myself as intimate with a woman in all ways. BLF thinks I'm gay for what I assume to be me saying "I'm not gay" over and over again for no reason. They think I am a repressed homoloveual. I say it to keep anxiety down. I've never had a loveual desire for men or a romantic desire for men ever.
I used to have Harm OCD, where I would have intrusive thoughts about killing somebody or "If you don't turn off your lights 30 times then you will turn into a killer". I eventually got over it and I moved on.
Also, please do not call me gay, I understand BLF loves to instigate and seeks conflict, but for my mental health and my way to get better, just don't, please.
