there is where you went wrong there magik because i have no friends because all they do is backstab you when you are weakest.
I understand what you mean, friend. I, too, have been back stabbed. However, if you eliminate all fear of being hurt, you also eliminate all the chance of you making a true friend.
It's like making a blanket. If you make it, but fear it will be too hot under it, you only wasted your time making the blanket. And because of thus fear, in the cold winter nights, you will have no warmth close to you.
Simply, in order to make a shadow vanish, you must also extinguish a light.