Feep is right. I am much less enjoyable to be around, especially in game.
In reality I am not a hugely angry person. Quite nonchalant, often pretty indifferent. I am quite a bitter personality, however. Humorous, but bitter. My jokes are usually crude humor, or aimed at someone. I am highly opinionated, you've probably noticed. I can be quite the antagonist too.
I consider myself quite a mature individual. Someone once said I looked much younger than he imagined, in that photo I posted in the "Post A Real Life Picture Of Yourself" topic. I guess its because I was the only one who was dressed smartly and wasn't hiding under a fringe like most of the teens who post their images, going for a sort of emo-in-denial look. I feel de-attached from my generation, and thats probably why I am unsocial. I am not a social person, online or in reality. I do not care if people loathe me or love me, ideally I'd prefer if there was a mutual feeling between everyone that was just... meh. I am not some socially awkward person who hides in their room and never comes out. But I have no desire to go and start kissing up to people, or gets hundreds of hollow Facebook friends like anyone cares.
I am creative, if I do say so myself. The idea of being able to make something that other people enjoy and use is exciting for me, and the internet made that possible. The Blockland forum is the easiest audience to hit for me, since I'm developing a product for my own age group, and it doesn't have to be the most professional piece of kit ever designed. This is why I'm often spewing out videos, or programs like AfterBlock (FEB 1ST GUISE).
Journalism is a big interest of mine. I spent a day working with some journalists just as a sort of work experience thing, going out and helping with the reports. I've always liked journalism, which is largely why TBB exists now, because blogging was emphasized as the future of journalism from the people I talked to, and trying it out myself now seems beneficial and fun.
I consider myself to be modest. I won't back down if someone criticizes what I do, but I find it hard to accept compliments, and I definitely doubt my abilities. In fact it makes me uncomfortable, especially if its someone from the community in-game. But I won't lie, it does hurt me that people try to explain my creative output as some sort of attention seeking scheme. No doubt I'd love my projects to get attention, from an advertising perspective. But my drive is not to get approval from the forum. My drive is to provide something to the small amount that will embrace and enjoy it, like the videos on YouTube perhaps. I wish people would stop being so up their own ass thinking is all about me wanting their own approval, and appreciate it for what is is. A creative project by someone who has the passion and the time.
If I am bitter, I'm bitter. I'm not going to change just for one person. And I don't see why I've been picked out, considering everyone is as, if not more moody than I usually am. I definitely used to be more "exciting" in-game if you like. Now I just prefer quietly sitting in servers like Zack0's or Wallets and not saying much.
I hope that gives you a better insight. I have no trouble listing my flaws, because thats me and if you don't like it, pfft what do I care I don't even know you anymore.
