so, the story begins with me meeting up with this beautiful single girl. It was at a, let's call it a "hangout". Girl fits me like a glove. She listens to metal (same favorite band, same favorite songs), watches the same animes and watched the same ones, plays video game and roleplaying games (board game), atheist, hating humankind (can't explain that properly, doesn't matter anyways) and so on.
we met last weekend and she instantly invited me over to her the other day (Wednesday to be honest). We had some nice chit chats, she played some songs on her piano (god damn it she played the song of storms while chatting with me and not even looking at the piano 3/4 of the time) and.. yeah we had a funny day.
SO. Dear whoda's not sure if they are now in the friend zone or still in the "meeting" zone. whoda hasn't had a girlfriend for over 3 years now and she actually never had a boyfriend at all.
and I'm back there where I was, being a cheap little idiot who's paying (lets say 40$) so I can actually meet with her (driving to her and back home = 3h) even though I don't even loving know how she thinks about me.
and since whoda can't be assed to feel any emotions that make him sad, unhappy and whatsoever he actually just wants to drink and ignore everything negative and look forward to today evening where I'm going to pay 40$ again to meet her.
Yeah. Really. I'm just stupid. I could ask her out but it's too loving soon and she never had a boyfriend before. I don't know when's the right time. This stuff is eating me inside up and I want it to go away. How I hate such situations.
