Author Topic: I think there is something wrong with me.  (Read 2112 times)

Yeah, I just can't stand the whole fake friend thing. Where they act nice to you but really they don't want anything to do with you. I get really paranoid over that.
I can't even say how to deal with it.  I'm still trying to figure that bullstuff out right now.  It pisses me off and depresses simultaneously.

Look up RingsOfSaturn/Comatose and look for the one with the little exponent on Steam. I'll be happy to talk.

You may be like me, you might just have paranoia that other people's caring is all lies and that nobody really cares about anyone else.
i feel like that all the time, actually

Also: Try to avoid killing yourself I know its hard to resist but don't do it. Keep away from ropes and stuff like that to avoid the thoughts. Try listening to music, sleeping, staring into space, other happy things, and stuff like that.

replace your brain with a copy of star's

Look up RingsOfSaturn/Comatose and look for the one with the little exponent on Steam. I'll be happy to talk.

Thanks! I'll hopefully get a chance to talk to you.

Also: Try to avoid killing yourself I know its hard to resist but don't do it. Keep away from ropes and stuff like that to avoid the thoughts. Try listening to music, sleeping, staring into space, other happy things, and stuff like that.

Okay, checklist time:

Lock the cabinets with the knives in them.
Lock up the gun cabinet.
Keep my knife in a locked up place.
Etc...

replace your brain with a copy of star's

Oh god, lol.

Kochie and Nick, stop being so stupid.  Get confidence in yourself, you two seem likeable.  People don't talk stuff about confident people, and even if they do, what does it matter?  If you're happy with yourself, nothing can go wrong.

Girls chase after confident guys.  Other guys feel stronger with confident friends, and in turn, feel more confident themselves.  That's how the strongest friendships are made.  Personally, I only fully trust 3 people, 2 friends and my sister.

If you're having trouble trusting friends, you're going to get crushed like I did when you really start to like a girl.  Love, essentially, is exposing the weakest and most vulnerable part of yourself to a person, and hoping they don't destroy it.  It's really a high risk/high reward game.  I realize I'm too young to fully understand, or perhaps even really feel, true love.  But I'm getting an idea, and it's scary.

I know this sounds sappy as forget, but whatever.

Kochie and Nick, stop being so stupid.  Get confidence in yourself, you two seem likeable.  People don't talk stuff about confident people, and even if they do, what does it matter?  If you're happy with yourself, nothing can go wrong.

Girls chase after confident guys.  Other guys feel stronger with confident friends, and in turn, feel more confident themselves.  That's how the strongest friendships are made.  Personally, I only fully trust 3 people, 2 friends and my sister.

If you're having trouble trusting friends, you're going to get crushed like I did when you really start to like a girl.  Love, essentially, is exposing the weakest and most vulnerable part of yourself to a person, and hoping they don't destroy it.  It's really a high risk/high reward game.  I realize I'm too young to fully understand, or perhaps even really feel, true love.  But I'm getting an idea, and it's scary.

I know this sounds sappy as forget, but whatever.

Hm... okay, I'll keep that in mind.

Kochie and Nick, stop being so stupid.
Confidence isn't a problem.  I've got a date to my school's upcoming semi so I'm not worried about women.  It's just one of these moments where I look at everything in the world and go "god damn, this world loving blows".  Trusting my friends isn't a problem either.  I think they all like me, really, but I just get upset that they talk about each other like that.

It's just a necessary moment of humility.  It's what guides me and shapes me to really take nothing for granted around me, and to also embrace life fully.


Confidence isn't a problem.  I've got a date to my school's upcoming semi so I'm not worried about women.  It's just one of these moments where I look at everything in the world and go "god damn, this world loving blows".  Trusting my friends isn't a problem either.  I think they all like me, really, but I just get upset that they talk about each other like that.

It's just a necessary moment of humility.  It's what guides me and shapes me to really take nothing for granted around me, and to also embrace life fully.
Oh, well I really misinterpreted what you mean there then.

Yeah kids are all starfishs, they always talk about each other.

Oh, well I really misinterpreted what you mean there then.

Yeah kids are all starfishs, they always talk about each other.
Ikr?  It's all sketchy these days.  I just tell them all to get along.

Ikr?  It's all sketchy these days.  I just tell them all to get along.
I go to an all guys school so there's not a lot of kids trashing each other, but my town's pub school has a lot of that.

I go to an all guys school so there's not a lot of kids trashing each other, but my town's pub school has a lot of that.
I go to an all guys school too, but even then I still hear tons of bullstuff.  I hang out with women from the near-by all girls schools too.

I go to an all guys school too, but even then I still hear tons of bullstuff.  I hang out with women from the near-by all girls schools too.
Sometimes there's not a lot you can do about it.  it sucks.