I hope that it's not too late for me to say this, but
Guys don't really want anything to do with me. They toss me away like trash.
I used to have a problem not too different from this. I used to be the resident cigarette at my school, I thought about killing myself several times, and almost became adamant on the idea. Then I realized that I was being a cigarette, I didn't reach out to make friends, I stuck out like a sore thumb. No one at all liked me at that time, and girls refused to come within 2 feet of me.
But, the secret is to act quote on quote "normal." You may not like it at first, but it'll help. First of all, don't let people in your school know you watch My Little Pony. That's a big nono for most guys. We have to be insanely masculine or we're somehow gay. If they already know, try to trick them into thinking it was just some stupid phase and you're over it.
I know, it's hard. I had to do it too. Then start to act like other people do. Observe people during lunch, but don't make yourself look like a stalker. See how people behave in the hallway. Attempt to somewhat emulate that behavior. Like if the people around you like Rap, start listening to rap. I had to do so, I didn't like rap at ALL at first, but I got used to it and eventually began to like it.
Also, you need to act "cool." Don't get excited. Always talk clearly, and calmly. If you act all excited then no one will want to hang out with you. When walking, make sure you do it rythmically, and don't flail your limbs around. Catch onto the school's trends, if the people there like anime, (which is highly unlikely,) watch anime.
Becoming popular at schools is a good way to raise your ego, before I did this stuff I was some depressed little cigarette no one liked. Now a lot of people like me, and hang out with me. And do remember the changes come with time, it'll take a year or two for them to start to like you. Just keep doing it, and you'll become popular.
