Sorry to hear that man. I, for one, never had a Mom that I knew. Never really knew her, and I only got to see her a few times when I was really little. She's now tatoo'd, a cigarette smoker, and extremely moody. Lived with her for two or three years, left a bad scar. Still get bad dreams every once in a while that she'll return and kill people in my family. I'm glad you had good memories with your Mom. Be thankful for your blessings. Your Mom may have left you in human form, but she's still with you as a spirit. Hope this makes you feel a bit better.