There's alot to explain, so bear with me please.
SO.
Freshman year, (I will be a junior this year), was my first year at a public highschool. The private school I went to before had a total student body of about the size of my freshman class (~150-200, not sure for certain). My 8th grade class had a whopping 4 girls in it, out of about 15-20 students, all of which I've known since preschool. So as you might believe, I didn't have much experience with meeting/talking to new girls (or just people for that matter). In my freshman physical science class, there was this girl in there I found to be pretty cute. I'm gonna call her Lucy. Lucy's best friend (I'll call her Linda) was in my English class that year aswell. They told eachother everything. Lucy was put in my group for some project one day, and we started chatting a little and got to know eachother. She always called me the "awkward kid" (I was a little shy as you'd probably imagine, didn't talk much). I thought I was starting to like her a little. Fast-forward to about midway thru freshman year. Linda had seen/heard of me and Lucy talking alot in science class and all, and Linda thought that I liked her. I told her I didn't. I didn't want to say anything until I was sure I legitimately liked her. Now in that half freshman year, I made a best friend, and we'll call him Rick. I told Rick about Lucy and he was sure I liked her too. I told Rick I liked her a fair amount. Rick knew Linda, and in turn TOLD Linda that I liked Lucy. Just like magic, Linda told Lucy I liked her. Now for the record, me and Lucy had a semi-good friendship going on. Things got a little more awkward from that point, but not much changed. That summer, I got her number and texted her throughout it, and I felt like things were going at a good pace, until she stopped responding to my texts more and more often. Fast forward to my sophmore year. I didn't have any classes with either Lucy nor Linda, so I didn't have much contact with them. I still liked Lucy, and me and Rick talked about it alot, and of course Rick kept telling her that I liked her. Eventually she just got "wiered out" by me still liking her from what I was told, and completely cut me off. No form of contact from her was had at all from then on out. No responses to texts at all. Now, me and Lucys friendship at that point was still growing, but we werent that good of friends yet. Now I just feel that she never really got the chance to get to know me more before the "cutoff". I tried texting her and tried to keep in contact, but never got any responses. Fast forward again to this summer. (ALMOST DONE GUYS!) I texted her saying "Hey, I think we should reconnect some!" and the response was along the lines of "Were we ever that connected?" I was tempted to say "Well whose fault was that?" but I kept it clean and tried to get her to reconsider things. Guess what, she got a boyfriend. She told me this: "I just don't have time. With the job I'm getting and my best friends and my boyfriend, I'm just too busy." All I got from that was "I'm too busy to make/refine friendships."
I'm mad at myself for not being more talkative/outgoing and I'm mad at Lucy for cutting me off and not getting to know me any better.
tl;dr Liked a chick, became friends, she found out I liked her and we never talked again.
Some details may be off due to memory, but most have been engrained in my mind for a LONG time.
Inb4"attentionwhore"and"stopaskingforpity" shut up and go away.
Thanks for reading.
