hey BLF, let's figure out what's wrong with me

[DrenDran]

Well, it's the middle of sommer, I have nothing to do, school starts soon though, and well, recently I feel I've had trouble focusing and have been feeling very worried. Mostly about what could be wrong with me, and dying and stuff like that, and well, it's not pleasant. I've been able to distract myself sometimes, but not for too long, and these thoughts end up popping back into my head and are very hard to get rid of. I've posted about this on /b/ before, but I wanted to throw this out to a community where my posts would remain for sometime. Not that I think there's a ton you can do to help, but it's a start. What I'm feeling is hard to describe, but I'll try to awnser questions.

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[Planr]

so basically you're feeling depressed? if that's the case, exersizing always helps

[SlayerZ99]

Get active. Go to camps, hang with friends do a sport or something.

[Someone from Across]

Get active. Go to camps, hang with friends do a sport or something.

This, and most of the time I just listen to music if I'm feeling down.

[Sami2ss]

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i think that it's good in a way that you are thinking about the future. i think that the only time "just think about now" is only good for when you are settled into something like a career, and you are doing good or whatever. in school, it's good to think about the future because of grades and stuff.

[KadeBL_ID12958]

i know exactly what this is. it happens to me every time i try to sleep. try meditating. i stopped having those thoughts for the time that i used to, i stopped because i haven't gotten around to it lately. but it helps.

[DrenDran]

Yeah, I have started exercising, granted that was a bit before this started.
I was just on a camping trip for a few days, all that bordom and sitting around REALLY didn't help.
I'm actually really loving wanting school to just start, I know it's terriable, but my life has no structure or purpose and anything I can make myself do around the house is barely a valid compensatition.
stuff sucks, can barely go 5 minutes without this getting on my mind, and the wiredest part is that I seem to be worried about being worried.

[Dezcaban]

So it's a kind of helpless agitation that kinda hangs over you and you don't know how to get rid of it?

[BubbaGum]

You're going to die

[DrenDran]

So it's a kind of helpless agitation that kinda hangs over you and you don't know how to get rid of it?

yerp
I also seem to have trouble focusing on things, and that's just another thing I'm worrying about, hoping I'm not getting some permanant memory disorder or something.

You're going to die

We all are.

[Dezcaban]

yerp
I also seem to have trouble focusing on things, and that's just another thing I'm worrying about, hoping I'm not getting some permanant memory disorder or something.

Yea I had this for a while. Mainly because of friends and problems and friction between us. I did lots of work around to house to get around it.

listen to some happy music.

[DrenDran]

Yea I had this for a while. Mainly because of friends and problems and friction between us. I did lots of work around to house to get around it.

listen to some happy music.

Funny, I more or less intentionally avoided contact with people from school so far this sommer, feels strange man.
I just hope I can convince myself in the morning to actually do work and stuff.

[RedGajin]

you just might be a homoloveual doctor

[Thar]

Oh my god I have this same problem.

I feel my heart just to be sure its beating regularly and I dwell on the thought of my parent's and my deaths. It makes me feel sad like I want to cry but if I distract myself it goes away but it always seems to come back.

i don't wanna die guys ;-;