I feel a huge disconnect from other humans, anyone else?

[weaver123]

I feel this way to the point where I don't reply if someone is talking to me. Sometimes I feel like people can read my mind.

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[naturemon]

I'm incredibly grateful, I ran into her in passing today and we ended up together for an hour or so, she makes me feel like I have a place with her, but she goes to a different school and because of parental issues and work I barely get to see her.

I guess you'd want to be checked out for anxiety, I have it and it's probably the root of this. Also, don't give up on this girl. Also, little things count tremendously with women, saying a simple good morning every day will net you major points

I actually rarely get to see this girl either, she's an extremely busy person and where I live is like void of anything to actually do, so there's not too many times I could see her. I also am in an interesting paradox of sorts, I love her and being one of her close friends has me close enough to feel a lot of emotional pain from not being with her. But I'm also suicidal and the only reason I'm around is the chance to be with her. So I'm in a lot of emotional distress everyday making feeling better near impossible while also being unable to get over her because doing that would get rid of the only reason I'm willing to live anyways. I've tried many things as well, therapists...anti depressants...etc, nothing actually helped me at all.

[ultimamax]

ikr. i recently accepted that i'm a fox in a human body. it's the only explanation.

[Night Fox]

ikr. i recently accepted that i'm a fox in a human body. it's the only explanation.

basically yeah

[rockslide26]

I actually rarely get to see this girl either, she's an extremely busy person and where I live is like void of anything to actually do, so there's not too many times I could see her. I also am in an interesting paradox of sorts, I love her and being one of her close friends has me close enough to feel a lot of emotional pain from not being with her. But I'm also suicidal and the only reason I'm around is the chance to be with her. So I'm in a lot of emotional distress everyday making feeling better near impossible while also being unable to get over her because doing that would get rid of the only reason I'm willing to live anyways. I've tried many things as well, therapists...anti depressants...etc, nothing actually helped me at all.

I feel your pain, I've been contemplating Self Delete in the past, and I'm in Connecticut as well, and it is true, there's absolutely nothing to do here. I've sort of come to terms with myself about Self Delete, because my girlfriend and I love each other to death, honestly I feel incredibly lucky we have something so real (no pun intended).

There must be something about Connecticut that makes people depressed, I swear 99% of the people I know exhibit symptoms of depression. Fairfield county might have money, but everybody is so unhappy here for the most part.

[Katadeus]

Never felt this way personally
I think humans as a species are absolutely massively stupid but this also includes me

I actually rarely get to see this girl either, she's an extremely busy person and where I live is like void of anything to actually do, so there's not too many times I could see her. I also am in an interesting paradox of sorts, I love her and being one of her close friends has me close enough to feel a lot of emotional pain from not being with her. But I'm also suicidal and the only reason I'm around is the chance to be with her. So I'm in a lot of emotional distress everyday making feeling better near impossible while also being unable to get over her because doing that would get rid of the only reason I'm willing to live anyways. I've tried many things as well, therapists...anti depressants...etc, nothing actually helped me at all.

Wow, sorry to hear that. Hope you pull through everything okay.

[Night Fox]

I don't really like any band members in my school which sucks bc that's like 1/4 of my classes (eight classes a year)
I don't wanna quit bc I like band tho
but otherwise I'm cool with most people

[naturemon]

I feel your pain, I've been contemplating Self Delete in the past, and I'm in Connecticut as well, and it is true, there's absolutely nothing to do here. I've sort of come to terms with myself about Self Delete, because my girlfriend and I love each other to death, honestly I feel incredibly lucky we have something so real (no pun intended).

There must be something about Connecticut that makes people depressed, I swear 99% of the people I know exhibit symptoms of depression. Fairfield county might have money, but everybody is so unhappy here for the most part.

Odd, I also know quite a few people depressed haha. I also find the relationship between this girl and I weird, it doesn't feel like an actual friendship, it's like really awkward and always has been for god knows why...it honestly feels like we are a couple when we're together and others get that impression anyways, but I'm fairly certain this is one sided as she does know how I feel about her and she's said she wanted to be friends.

Wow, sorry to hear that. Hope you pull through everything okay.

Thanks, not too many people saying that now as most of my friends don't want to hear it anymore (not because they don't care, just because it brings their mood down and there's not too much they can say anymore ), I have one I can talk to and he's determined to try to do something but I don't know what he can actually manage.

[rockslide26]

Odd, I also know quite a few people depressed haha. I also find the relationship between this girl and I weird, it doesn't feel like an actual friendship, it's like really awkward and always has been for god knows why...it honestly feels like we are a couple when we're together and others get that impression anyways, but I'm fairly certain this is one sided as she does know how I feel about her and she's said she wanted to be friends.

Thanks, not too many people saying that now as most of my friends don't want to hear it anymore (not because they don't care, just because it brings their mood down and there's not too much they can say anymore ), I have one I can talk to and he's determined to try to do something but I don't know what he can actually manage.

Ouch. People do care about you, and would be concerned if they knew how you felt. I really hope you find a positive outlet that makes you feel better, and I know it's not much, but you can shoot me a PM anytime if you need that, I know exactly how you feel though. Nobody should have to feel like this.

[naturemon]

Ouch. People do care about you, and would be concerned if they knew how you felt. I really hope you find a positive outlet that makes you feel better, and I know it's not much, but you can shoot me a PM anytime if you need that, I know exactly how you feel though. Nobody should have to feel like this.

Thanks for the offer. I really have to just hope somehow we end up together though...otherwise my future's not looking too bright. Probably the worst part of this is that I often have dreams we're together that feel so real that I wake up completely confused as to what happened. The pain that comes from being in a state of pure happiness to being brought back to a depressing reality is overwhelming. I'm also glad that I was able to at least share this, not too many people I can actually get opinions from anymore, the chance to know if someone else can see something my friend and I couldn't is always nice.

[rockslide26]

Thanks for the offer. I really have to just hope somehow we end up together though...otherwise my future's not looking too bright. Probably the worst part of this is that I often have dreams we're together that feel so real that I wake up completely confused as to what happened. The pain that comes from being in a state of pure happiness to being brought back to a depressing reality is overwhelming. I'm also glad that I was able to at least share this, not too many people I can actually get opinions from anymore, the chance to know if someone else can see something my friend and I couldn't is always nice.

I felt that same dream-reality pattern as well, and it really sucks. I dealt with most of it through writing, painting, and music, it didn't get rid of all the pain but made it a whole lot more bearable. My advice for the moment is just stick with it, but let her make the first move. Be good to her, but let her make the decision for you to be together. Women are usually very hard to read, she probably likes you but is nervous, based on her reactions. There's a lot of hope yet

[TeslaCoil]

There's honestly too many people on this planet who feel the way you do. Like me. If anything you're acting even more human likes the rest of us trying to disconnect and isolate yourself as some kind of special human and identifying everyone else as clones or cardboard cutouts. Which every human of that particular thought process commonly does. It also heavily depends on your age say the least.

I don't know, I feel that maybe there is in fact something special about us. But its probably an illusion of my mind.

[naturemon]

I felt that same dream-reality pattern as well, and it really sucks. I dealt with most of it through writing, painting, and music, it didn't get rid of all the pain but made it a whole lot more bearable. My advice for the moment is just stick with it, but let her make the first move. Be good to her, but let her make the decision for you to be together. Women are usually very hard to read, she probably likes you but is nervous, based on her reactions. There's a lot of hope yet

See, I want to have an outlet but I cannot find one at all lol. I'm having trouble finding something I like, and actually gets me results that don't look like crap, I tried painting, writing, I do write poems sometimes but not often enough for me to consider it an outlet of any kind, I tried drawing, pixel art, didn't have the patience for papercraft/pepakura, I have my guitar but I'm not good enough at it yet for it to be a valid outlet for me. And I'm giving it time, I'm just glad she wanted to stay friends and telling her I love her didn't ruin our friendship. Do you have any suggestions for an outlet?

[Dodger]

I feel similar, but I also feel unproductive, like, I'm never doing anything productive, never satisfied with the media I take in or the skills I develop, because I feel like it's not useful for trying to accept and becoming connected with reality. I think it's a result of the divulging in the western ideal of individualism too much, but I cannot confirm this since I do not have enough experience as an armchair philosopher. Anyways, I have to continue cycling between watching Squid girl and listening to Norma Jean, I;ll check this thread later.

[rockslide26]

See, I want to have an outlet but I cannot find one at all lol. I'm having trouble finding something I like, and actually gets me results that don't look like crap, I tried painting, writing, I do write poems sometimes but not often enough for me to consider it an outlet of any kind, I tried drawing, pixel art, didn't have the patience for papercraft/pepakura, I have my guitar but I'm not good enough at it yet for it to be a valid outlet for me. And I'm giving it time, I'm just glad she wanted to stay friends and telling her I love her didn't ruin our friendship. Do you have any suggestions for an outlet?

Keep practicing your guitar, and I also suggest building things, it doesn't matter what it is, but I feel proud of myself for finishing something. I guess I find "projects" for myself to do, and I do them. I've made computers, birdhouses, a nice little shelf thing where I store all of my games, and currently I'm trying to string a Longbow, I guess it's a nice outlet because it feels so rewarding to start something, stick with it by working a bit each day, and then finishing it. I also am trying to learn the guitar but I'm not horribly good at it, but I'll get there