Hey all of you guys.
I've made a topic similar to this one before, so please don't say 'oh you're such a blogger' because I realize that I made that thread, but it was a different sort of note not exactly relevant to this one.
Anyway, down to the problem;
Since as long as I can remember, I get these sort of rage flashes, I don't fully or even partially understand why or how or how to control them. It's just whenever a certain thing happens it drives me to the point I literally want to put my fist through the nearest thing to me, no matter the consequences. I don't understand why it happens or what the triggers are.
It takes literally every ounce of my strength to keep from letting myself just go ape-stuff on the nearest thing or the thing causing it, and I usually have to remove myself from the situation only to hit the forget out of whatever I'm near then, typically a pillow or punching bag.
I know some of you will say "Oh well that's normal just get over it", but it really isn't, I know that I get mad at times and that things are going to anger me, but these flashes are pure rage, I can't fully explain it.
Some of the things that cause me to experience this; my new dog barking, my grandparents (I live with them) being anywhere near me while drunk, hearing my ex say certain words, people near me being absolutely obnoxious, getting touched any way in an aggressive manner.
And that's what I mean, none of them are related in any way, and I know those are things that would make a person normally mad, but it's like I can get angry over other stupid stuff but these just, holy forget I don't get it.
Idk, forums help me
