I'm not good. I'm losing contact with my best friend who desperately needs help and someone to talk to. I'm about to dive head first into college with no money or scholarships. I'm living with my other friend that I'm commonly mistaken for, but our schedules are completely reversed and we only see each other at breakfast and dinner. I can hardly sleep. I'm living off of ramen, sandwiches, and the occasional take out from whatever food they have in this college town. I have no contact with my parents, and my roommate hasn't spoken with his since he was 16. We're alone together and floundering.
My roommate and I are close. Physically. I don't want that to go away when we start classes. I want it open so we both can have a good time, but I want to be there for him and him for me. Does that mean I want a real relationship? What if I meet someone and end up drifting from him.
Neither of us has been able to draw in months. We've fallen behind in hobbies and fitness and while skinny because of our awful diet were out of shape.
I feel lost.