I think what you're saying is you're dependent, not addicted.
When you're addicted to something, you will do bizarre crazy things to feed your cravings and your priorities shift towards your addiction. Negative consequences may occur but often they simply push you further into the addictive cycle and instead of dealing with them directly you satisfy your craving to ease guilt and pain. Behaviour is reinforced through feelings of pleasure and/or mental or physical "relief" when the craving is satisfied.
Dependence is different, you use a substance (or satisfy a compulsion) because you perceive that it is necessary for you to continue functioning. It generally only causes negative consequences when you stop use and feel a withdrawal effect or loss of function that gradually dwindles as you continue to abstain. This is present in addiction also but the key difference is that dependent users, after functioning normally for a certain period without using the substance, do not feel a "need" to use anymore. Behaviour is reinforced because the user gets into a habit of functioning on the substance and the immediate effects of cessation compel them to not continue abstinence.
Now, that being said, caffeine dependence does not, in the long-run, benefit most people. You have to understand that you only want to continue using and you do not need to. Just abstain from caffeine, deal with the after effects and once you can function without it use it only occasionally and never daily. Tapering down completely is unnecessary, caffeine withdrawal is nothing just deal with it.
