Alright, I wasn't going to post but I need to weigh in on the Coolester thing.
I don't generally approve of non-adults doing drugs. I think there's some allowance for experimentation; I wouldn't get mad at a 14 year old for smoking weed or a 16 year old for trying Ecstasy, but I would give neither approval for continued use, even if "responsible." However, I don't think it's really my right to tell them what to do. People tell me not to do drugs all the time, and I'm glad that despite that, there are resources out there that help me do what I want responsibly. So, while I don't personally approve of kids doing drugs, I just can't turn my back and shame them for doing it anyway.
On the shrooms topic: it would be stupid to eat them. There's literally 10,000 well documented different mushrooms that grow in North America. According to "
mushroom the journal" roughly 30% are edible (25% being not enjoyable). So, at best you've got a 1/3 chance that it'll go down and through your digestive tract without upsetting your body. So you're trying to identify them. Good job, that
is responsible behavior. There
are a lot of people who go out looking for mushrooms and eat them. However, most of those people are more experienced than you. Granted, they were not always that way, but more often than not they probably had some form of mentor that knew more than them who would stop them from ingesting poisonous mushrooms. So you're trying to use the internet as your mentor, which is better than nothing, but your computer is not going to stop you from ingesting shrooms if you've misidentified them.
But say, somehow, you do positively identify them as a type of mushroom that both contains Psilocybin and will not make you violently sick. Maybe you pass by a guy at a farmers market who sells medicinal mushrooms, and the guy gives you the nod. Who knows. I wouldn't trust a "match" on some shroom identification site as a positive identification. Well, alright, now you've got yourself some magic mushrooms, congratulations. Where are you going to do them? You've gotta have roughly 4 hours set aside where nothing scary can possibly happen to you. And I don't mean logically scary, I mean illogically scary. For example, you may think that doing them at midnight in your house after your parents have gone to bed is a good idea because they are deep sleepers and never check on you. That's great, and probably true, but when you're tripping and hallucinate a sound, the first thing that's going to come to mind is
"stuff! My parents are coming." So you instead decide to trip outside during the daytime in the park where you look like you're just having a nice time.
"Why is everyone looking at me? Do they know?" A cop rolls up for no reason really, he's just patrolling the park.
"forget! They called the cops! They know." You can see where I'm going with this.
I'm sure you've looked up set and setting. I'm sure you have some place in mind, I'm sure you've got a contingency plan, I'm sure you think you're prepared. And maybe you are, I don't know you well enough to tell you if you are or aren't, and I don't think that your half behavior positively identifies you as someone who is incapable of using drugs responsibly. I see that you are making an effort to better yourself, and that's why I had to come out and make a post. I can't let it go unacknowledged that you are trying to be responsible, and that you're trying to put an end to the actions that you're known for. However, in this situation, I
still can't recommend that you proceed. It's not about whether you'll ever do drugs again, it's about you doing them right now.
