I think I've really screwed the pooch this time.

[McJobless]

Normally I'd write this kind of thing on my blog, but tonight I want to be a part of blogland.

Just, forget me.

I knew, even since last year, I was supposed to be building a metric stuff-ton of games, animations, images etc so when it came to right now, I'd be prepared. But of course, I'm a rooster, I ignored my own advice and now I'm not sure how forgeted I am.

This term in Internship Prep. That means by the end of term, I'm supposed to have applied for multiple Internships and get successful with at least one of them, so I can fulfil my 200 hours. What's absolutely fantastic is that the teacher literally said Game Designers have it the worst; fashion designer, business student, photographer etc Interns are in high demand. But unfortunately, the Games Industry down here is really tiny, and so we only have a few Internship spots available. That in and of itself is already pretty terrifying odds, but it then gets combined with the fact that hundreds of other game design students in my state alone are also preparing to do internships, and it's so much more likely they've got pretty loving awesome portfolios.

One of my classes is about making various portfolio material; stuff like business cards, demo reels, websites etc. I was making a website today, and I've already started freaking out over how stuffty all my content is. I've made nothing impressive whatsoever. Everything is utter crap, and it doesn't help that the web site design is bollocks too.

I want a good Internship. I would love to be one of the few who get to be an Intern Narrative Designer, since that's exactly what I do best, but I really don't like my chances right now.

Now, you could say, "Go and make some games you lazy stuff?" Not easy when I'm juggling 3 class-loads, paid writing work, working on long-term game project with a friend and then search for more work, because apparently people around here want my money so badly and they don't particularly think writing is a "real job". Let's not forget the insomnia, either. By the time I can sit down at my currently malfunctioning laptop, I've got barely any energy left in me to want to build games. I can do the designs fine, but I'm having issues motivating myself to build the content (programming, graphics, wiring it all together etc), and it doesn't help that I think everything I've built so far is a total crock of stuff.

What do I do, Blogland? I don't have enough rope to hang myself so I'm going to have to find a better solution to this problem.

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[Steve5451²]

You can't be juggling too much if you took the time to write this. The time could've been applied to make games you lazy stuff.

[McJobless]

You can't be juggling too much if you took the time to write this. The time could've been applied to make games you lazy stuff.

If it was morning you'd be right, but it's 9:30PM and at this point my brain is just a massive pile of stuffe, so I don't think I could even code a simple calculator, let alone something like a text adventure.

EDIT: If I could upload my game design documents, I'd be fine since I've got a lot of those on hand constantly, but I've been told specifically that's an absolute no-no.

[Foxscotch]

told you that hat made you a furry

[kanew2000]

on a scale of 1-10 how stuff was your portfolio

[McJobless]

on a scale of 1-10 how stuff was your portfolio

I'm getting about 6 teachers to rip it to absolute shreds tomorrow so I'll get a number there, but personally I think mine is sitting at a 2, maybe a 4 at best.

[Steve5451²]

If it was morning you'd be right, but it's 9:30PM and at this point my brain is just a massive pile of stuffe, so I don't think I could even code a simple calculator, let alone something like a text adventure.

I've pulled all nighters and didn't sleep until the next night to code all day and it doesn't effect my abilities. People need to stop throwing the whole tired excuse. It's way too common here.
I skipped sleep every other day to code my chat script. You're tired, not inebriated. I think you'll survive a few hours past your bed time.
I don't want to come off as hostile, but come on man.

[McJobless]

I understand that you're trying to help and I appreciate it, but I'm being quite literal when I say I'm sick of all nighters and I don't think that's the advice I need right now.

If I get closer to a submission deadline, then I might consider it as the only option, but right now I think it's more important I get help figuring out how to make my days hours the most productive they can be, so that way I can use my night hours to sleep off the damage the past two weeks dealt.

If it helps you, that's awesome, but I think there's only been once or twice when an all nighter has improved the work that I was supposed to be working on in my case. I'm a lot more prone to mistakes and over-correcting, and then my concentration throughout the entire day is stuff. I think sleep is far more important than people give credit for and I've been really stuffty with my sleep patterns over the past year.

[Planr]

it's a sad thing to say but you probably would have been better off choosing to pursue a career that has more money in it (in your area).

[Refticus]

looks like you'll be MCJOBLESS.






i will not take that back.

[otto-san]

it's a sad thing to say but you probably would have been better off choosing to pursue a career that has more money in it (in your area).

at least at first, but if game design is what he really wants to do there's no reason to drop that idea completely


sucks that you ended up here mate. hope it somehow works out in the end.

[Rigel]

looks like you'll be MCJOBLESS.






i will not take that back.

This is pretty frightening to hear as someone that aspires to become a game designer.

[Foxscotch]

This is pretty frightening to hear as someone that aspires to become a game designer.

well, as long as you don't live in australia, it won't be as hard as he's saying

[carolcat]

well, as long as you don't live in australia, it won't be as hard as he's saying

maybe the other game designers will get killed in a freak spider accident, leaving a bunch of new openings

[Ben Grapevine]

You made some really dumb choices.