My experience with homecoming

[hillkill]

Disclaimer: I am not pleading for sympathy, nor asking for attention. I'm pretty much venting, and seeing what you guys say.

So I went to the homecoming dance. I made a thread a few weeks ago deciding if I should go or not, I don't know what convinced me to go. The second I stepped out of the car, I was having some sort of anxiety attack. I went inside and walked around aimlessly, away from my group. I walked around for a good hour before I decided to sit down. I was pretty much on the verge of tears before I sat down. I tried really hard not to cry, but a little came out (read disclaimer again.) People tried to help me, but it was pretty much useless. Some lesbian girl wanted to slow dance with me, only to make me feel better, which in turn hurt even more. The same thing happened with my best friend, who happens to be my ex. I guess I got somehow happier, I don't know how to be honest. After that, I slow danced with a girl I'm in love with for like 5 seconds, but she said it was awkward because we don't really know each other. She was pretty much forced on to do it. Then I left with my group.

0/10 would not go again

P.S. Read disclaimer before you said anything rash.

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[Blockzillahead]

there should be plenty of lonely girls sitting on the side line you could swoop in and grab if you dont got a date....
or is that for prom i forgot

[Zharthon]

there should be plenty of lonely girls sitting on the side line you could swoop in and grab if you dont got a date....
or is that for prom i forgot

 Well, I am not sure, but I think prom's actually require for you to find a date before you actually enter.

 Again, I am not sure, so don't quote me on that.

[hillkill]

there should be plenty of lonely girls sitting on the side line you could swoop in and grab if you dont got a date....
or is that for prom i forgot

not desperate.

[Blockzillahead]

not desperate.

WHAT MY brother
thats what your entire op sounds like

and its not desperate. if you dont got a date, pick one up at the dance. easy grab because theyre probably just as awkward as you are

[ResonKinetic]

awww

 

[Mister Cheese]

That sucks :(
I know that feel man

[Maxwell.]

would've been wise to go with a girl

[hillkill]

WHAT MY brother
thats what your entire op sounds like

and its not desperate. if you dont got a date, pick one up at the dance. easy grab because theyre probably just as awkward as you are

theres two things wrong with that statement. 1. i have social anxiety or something similar. 2. that would be weird, asking someone you don't know.

the depression I felt that day, which is pretty much everyday, is an extreme feeling of loneliness, feeling like I'm weighing everyone down, and suicidal thoughts. thats pretty much it.

[hillkill]

would've been wise to go with a girl

i've been familyzoned with a girl whos really attractive and we have a lot of things in common like our severe depression. my other friend, my ex, whos my best friend, thats just who she is now, I don't feel anything there.

[ResonKinetic]

that would be weird, asking someone you don't know.

If you don't talk to people, you're not gonna know anyone.

forget

[hillkill]

If you don't talk to people, you're not gonna know anyone.

forget

idk thats just how my brain works. i havent made a new friend in a loooong time lmao.

[ResonKinetic]

idk thats just how my brain works. i havent made a new friend in a loooong time lmao.

Yeah I know it isn't easy, especially if you've got mental health issues, but even if you should fail, have the courage to try.

Logically, what do you have to lose?

[Blake1]

you're an introvert
like me

[hillkill]

Yeah I know it isn't easy, especially if you've got mental health issues, but even if you should fail, have the courage to try.

Logically, what do you have to lose?

for me, its like my brain tells me to do stuff, mostly socialize with new people, but at the same time every nerve in my body tells me "something bad will happen" and tells me to just leave it alone. so thats how it goes.