: What was it?
He pauses a moment and collects his thoughts, deciding to follow through after sighing.
"Don't get me wrong, I don't have an issue with firing a rifle and ending someones life. Dead, Is dead. I just know that if I was to kill someone it wouldn't matter for that single person, but what would matter is the people connected to that person would be affected."
Walter pauses again
"I feel like if I had watched a person before I killed them, interacting with their peers somewhere, I'd feel guilt for killing them and taking them away."
Walter shifts in his seat with a more neutral expression on his face
"That mindset comes back to get me, But in the other way around, where I could be the person losing someone.... So right now, I'm kind of scared to speak to you about this, I'm not sure if you've noticed but I haven't really said or done anything when my squad members get shot down or... pass... I haven't displayed a level of emotion for that sort of thing since..."
He cuts himself off to stave off the sentence
"I rather protect the people I know the best I can, I can't cure death. But I can prevent it or at least by shifting the amount of it to the other side."