Author Topic: just let it all out 1  (Read 62205 times)

I've looked up TF2 research before because at the time I didn't play it and thought there would be girls in it.
Well, needless to say..

I want to stick my richard in john freeman

i've never heard of this technique

i just pucker my lips and blow

don't take that out of context

I messed about with the q thing until I got to where I can just use my lips, but that was my way starting off and still works well.

also, just pucker and blow
eyebrow wiggle

sometimes i think Riddler wasn't such a bad guy

I mean he killed 6 million jews but if he didn't he'd probably be just another enemy of good ol uncle sam


I'm loving tired. I'm loving drained.

The day was a rush of getting to college early in the morning learning a stuff-ton about After Effects, talking to people I know about how awful the college's tech setup is, and then I spent a lot of my energy designing my major project video game, which is something very small and personal to me.

You know what pisses me off? Character Design. There's this expectation in the class that everybody is already amazing at drawing and mudbox, so people like me are being left behind, and I will probably fail the class because it's outside of my comfort zone. I can't loving do anything visual. I'm a goddam writer and hopefully one day a programmer. I lost 3 weeks doing my drawings, and now I'm expected to have my whole character model sculpted in one week. It's not loving possible, but there are no concessions given for those of us who are struggling.

Now the school has piled on three other subjects. I'd be fine with them, but Character Design is making everything stressful. forget me senseless.


forget dude, if I could I'd make something for you, but my final exams literally just started.
If I still had it I could give you one of my finished 3D characters too, yuck.

is this a topic about secrets or just being able to vent some? I'm confused since I read the OP and I probably do need to let something out, or what I've been going through for a little while :l

is this a topic about secrets or just being able to vent some? I'm confused since I read the OP and I probably do need to let something out, or what I've been going through for a little while :l
both

oh okay, thanks.
some of this may be icky/scary to some, idk

Started on May 1st. After doing a bit of searching I discovered I had a diabetic coma and I was feeling the effects after I had slept 14 hours, due to my own stubbornness of wanting to stay up for something, with very little rest from the previous night. To sum it up, blood sugar levels dove way down as I slept, body started shaking like mad, then I rebounded up to a steady sugar level, but not before nearly sapping all my muscles. Woke up in plenty of pain and sore all over.

Zoom forward a bit, I've already talked with my father about it and that I was going to take action to prevent it again. I take it easy, slowly recovering, then Mother's day is soon. Feel well enough and not in too much pain, head out with a sibling and my father to get some cards at a nearby Target. Goes smoothly, we jump out then head back home and later on I start feeling a bit strange. End up getting a strep throat which starts to take a toll, but was multiplied because of my weakened state. End up having to go to a doctor, get an antibiotic pack which I was supposed to take over the next few days/weekend(today's the last day). Throat ends up getting to an unbearable point, but manage to get through it, then my sinuses are more than congested. It's moving around, fun.

So if you come to today, I haven't had any sleep due to a gas buildup(world of pain for two hours), random nosebleeds, drying out like crazy despite almost taking half a gallon of water in a relatively short period of time and coughing fits that put me into some more pain. I can't blow my nose to get the mucus out, nor can I cough it up, since if I try I end up getting specs of blood.

so I'm not feeling too good. At least I don't have the coughing fits right now


that sounds really horrible, I hope you get better from this point on

pretty peeved about how much my art has degraded after a few months of not doing anything, too unmotivated to do anything about it
heck

like

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that sounds really horrible, I hope you get better from this point on

<3

pretty peeved about how much my art has degraded after a few months of not doing anything, too unmotivated to do anything about it
heck

like
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didnt you just get a new tablet?

I hide the fact I'm completely miserable from my friends and the different scenerios for offing myself that run through my head on a daily basis.

I think one of the reasons I haven't kill myself yet is because I haven't found the right way to go yet.

I hide the fact I'm completely miserable from my friends and the different scenerios for offing myself that run through my head on a daily basis.

I think one of the reasons I haven't kill myself yet is because I haven't found the right way to go yet.

Even if no one seems to care, you will seriously destroy/damage a lot of lives if you kill yourself.