Becuase I am a social screwup and I get nervous around people I don't know
yeah you and like 95% of everybody else. the problem is your stuffty defeatist attitude.
A few years ago I was like you, I was an un-confident slimy forget who watched MLP and posted on this forum obsessively (60 posts per day). People used to spread rumors about me and harass me endlessly. I was the victim of rumors that claimed I jerked off in class. It got to the point where I actually spent more time cultivating my reputation here than I did in actual real life. I threatened Self Delete and attempted more than once. A while back I had a creepy obsessive crush on one of the chicks on the forum to the point where I threatened to murder all her friends and in the process I lost my only 3 internet friends. I ended up in bootcamp because I was such a forgeted up socially awkward cunt. I got raped in bootcamp for forgets sake. You know what the difference is? I hate being pitied. I have every excuse to wake up every morning and tell myself that I'm never gonna have friends so I might as well jerk off to a kids cartoon, but I don't. If I want attention I want it for being cool, attractive and resilient, not because I need it.
Pluck your unibrow, shave regularly, get a neat haircut, get contacts if you need to, stop watching cartoons for little girls and get the forget off this website. Pick up a skateboard and hit up a skatepark or get your mom to drive you to Games Workshop and buy some space marines or some stuff. Go to the gym or find a $5 local band concert, ride a bike, take a walk,
do something, be independent, and you WILL meet people. Get a hobby that's not sitting on your ass feeling sorry for yourself. People will come your way if you go out. Conversations will come to you so easy it'll make your head spin, all it takes is one guy asking to do a trick on your skateboard or somebody asking you to spot them at the gym, and boom, you've got a potential friendship right there. Being a 'socially awkward screw up' is victim-mentality speak for 'i haven't made an effort to be social'. Last friday I went to a concert venue alone and met a girl who wanted to ride my skateboard. By the end of the night I had her number and I'm chilling with her this weekend. This could be you. Ownership, accountability and responsibility is the difference between a victim and a victor.
You're about to move, you couldn't ask for a better opportunity. When you do move and people try to 'make friends with the new guy' (and they will) have an interesting back story to tell them. Before I moved to Australia I was a quiet dude that nobody knew and I had maybe about 3 friends. Then I moved to Australia and by taking the advice I gave you I was the most popular guy in the school by the end of the year. Yeah I forgeted up a lot, when I asked a girl out for the first time I spaghetti'd so bad she avoided me for a week. But you learn from your mistakes and you keep on going. The beauty of perspective is how easily it changes.
A year from now you could be a happy, attractive guy living life to the fullest, taking names, feeling confident. You don't
have to be the socially awkward forget getting bullied by dargerelponyforgeter-mcneckbeard on a forum about internet legos, and don't ever delude yourself that you do.
(This post is 75% self assuring rant and 25% kinda helping someone I empathize with)
EDIT: Social anxiety is something that is most likely going to plague you for a very long time until you stop caring, and that only comes from bitter experience. You can control it however. I went to a concert once where the girl I liked was celebrating her birthday with 50 of her friends who don't know me. I got off the train platform and when I saw the crowd I immediately had a panic attack and started vomiting my guts out in a nearby alley for about 30 minutes. Difference is, after it happened I rinsed my mouth off at a water fountain and opened a pack of mint gum, and got out there anyway, and it turned out okay.
