I think I'm slipping backwards into some mild depression

[XR-7]

I think it may just be from the overwhelming changes that are happening to me. I won't go into heavy detail publicly just because I'm worried about the wrong people seeing the wrong things, but at night I've been feeling really down. It's almost 2:30am here and I haven't and can't sleep. It was past 3:30 last night that I fell asleep.

It may just be caused by ending school, getting a job, starting to pay for my things, and some recent social differences. When I do manage to get to sleep at night, I have these wild dreams that get me all happy and excited. I wake up and the feeling remains briefly, but when I realize that I'm awake and the dreams aren't real, I feel like I was just hit by a train.

Probably not the best idea posting on the forums since most of you are younger than me and still in school, but there are several people who have been through similar (and much worse) situations than I.

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[Seath45]

You don't even know what it like to be my brother right now.
Survived a car fatal car crash
Recovered 100%
Broke up with 3 girlfriends, trying to get another
Went through heart palpitations
Lost his grandfathers due to cancer/sicknesses
Etc.

[$trinick]

You don't even know what it like to be my brother right now.

Did he claim to? How is this relevant to the OP, or are you just being a richard? "Suck it up, X person's life is worse" isn't really an acceptable thing to say to anyone with depression.

[espio100]

You don't even know what it like to be my brother right now.
Survived a car fatal car crash
Recovered 100%
Broke up with 3 girlfriends, trying to get another
Went through heart palpitations
Lost his grandfathers due to cancer/sicknesses
Etc.

I feel sorry for your brother and all.
but you're not really helping right now.

OT: get ehh... well soon? I guess. Just try to notice the happy things instead of constantly thinking of sad things.

[HerpaDerp]

You don't even know what it like to be my brother right now.
Survived a car fatal car crash
Recovered 100%
Broke up with 3 girlfriends, trying to get another
Went through heart palpitations
Lost his grandfathers due to cancer/sicknesses
Etc.

this is some good advice i suggest you follow this

[Seath45]

Did he claim to? How is this relevant to the OP, or are you just being a richard? "Suck it up, X person's life is worse" isn't really an acceptable thing to say to anyone with depression.

I'm not being a richard right now, I'm just saying I feel bad for xr and my brother, they're going through some tough times.

[XR-7]

You don't even know what it like to be my brother right now.
Survived a car fatal car crash
Recovered 100%
Broke up with 3 girlfriends, trying to get another
Went through heart palpitations
Lost his grandfathers due to cancer/sicknesses
Etc.

Man yeah that sucks. I'm fortunate to not be dealing with any of that.

OT: get ehh... well soon? I guess. Just try to notice the happy things instead of constantly thinking of sad things.

Thanks. My life right now is really very great (could be better...but who doesn't think the same), so I figure it's just from all the sudden changing and I'll just get accustomed to it.

[TheABELBOTO]

Op you're just overthinking things and it's prob making you really anxious

[XR-7]

Op you're just overthinking things and it's prob making you really anxious

That's probably part of it. But there are also some things that are actual problems with no definite solution.

[spideykong]

I'm not being a richard right now, I'm just saying I feel bad for xr and my brother, they're going through some tough times.

Okay but that isn't relevant in the slightest

[Brickitect]

Op you're just overthinking things and it's prob making you really anxious

This.

Happens to me too.  I overthink and overstress and become anxious and a lil depressed....sometimes.

[Dannu]

Since you mentioned recent changes involving getting more independent, is your diet sufficient? One thing that it may be is that you are no longer getting enough frequent 'proper' meals since suddenly that responsibility is entirely yours. I'm just speculating here though since I am not aware of every detail of your situation. Remember, nutrition affects your state of mind way more than you'd think.

[PurpleSir]

I'm not being a richard right now, I'm just saying I feel bad for xr and my brother, they're going through some tough times.

your brother is irrelevant

[phflack]

there are several people who have been through similar (and much worse) situations\

or going through

When I do manage to get to sleep at night, I have these wild dreams that get me all happy and excited. I wake up and the feeling remains briefly, but when I realize that I'm awake and the dreams aren't real, I feel like I was just hit by a train.

reminds me of when I woke up this morning, to realize that my dream of being back at college with everybody there
and then realizing that it's currently summer, and that some of them are never coming back

but yeah, my solution is game and code all the time, sleep only when I can't stay awake
results in forgetting to eat for two days in a row though, but apparently I function fine without it

[Miga]

results in forgetting to eat for two days in a row though, but apparently I function fine without it

Just a bit of advice from personal experience: do not forget to eat.