i'm confused about everything

[blood.fm]

i think i'm going insane.

this morning, at 1 am, i was up crying because of depression, now that's normal, but i'm starting to go deeper into my thoughts and i'm really confused about certain things. for one, i have this image of society being the undergoing evil that no one knows about, i despise religion, ethic principals and authority as well. i try to be as rebellious and different as possible, and that's gotten me nowhere, but i just don't want to stop. my mind also spirals into thought about my existence, like, for example i think about if i'm real or a computer generated file. everything is confusing, i always feel like absolute stuff and i can't really talk to anyone. i'm close to killing myself because honestly nothing makes sense and i just feel the world is shrouded in evil.

also, i know a made a few stuffposts this morning but that was to make me feel better about my situation, i'm sorry if anyone was annoyed.

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[Space1255]

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I don't know how to help you. If you have any real life friends, schedule some gaming sessions with them, always cheered me up.

[sir dooble]

You need to speak to a professional.

[blood.fm]

You need to speak to a professional.

i have. i've never really had any help from therapy, and friends can only get you so far. i enjoy talking to relatives and those close, but the ecstasy only lasts until the session ends.

[[FUG] Nukedude]

You need to speak to a professional.

[sir dooble]

i have. i've never really had any help from therapy, and friends can only get you so far. i enjoy talking to relatives and those close, but the ecstasy only lasts until the session ends.

Have you told your therapist this?
None of us here are going to be able to help you out properly. At most you'll get some mediocre advice, at worst you'll get dangerous advice.

[blood.fm]

Have you told your therapist this?
None of us here are going to be able to help you out properly. At most you'll get some mediocre advice, at worst you'll get dangerous advice.

i've told him about everything that goes on, and he hasn't been able to help me. same thing with my last therapist, did nothing.

[Space1255]

i've told him about everything that goes on, and he hasn't been able to help me. same thing with my last therapist, did nothing.

Look for more therapists.

[Cone²]

if you've been on these forums for more than 1 year or have bought an alt account if you were banned you are insane

do you qualify

[GoldenLego]

You seem like you don't have faith in anything in you're life, nothing to grasp onto.

[Nobot]

this morning, at 1 am, i was up crying because of depression, now that's normal

That's not normal.

Look man, if what you're saying is true, then you really need help. Depression can lead to confusion, and eventually confusion on 'why you exist?' can eventually lead to Self Delete.
Before you Self Delete, (if you actually are going to in the future or something) try and think about the effects it will have on your family. A lot of family members end up committing Self Delete after one of their loved ones committed Self Delete. (I've seen families that have done this) It's a pretty bad chain of events.

The only helpful tip I can say is that try to just have fun and don't worry about the big questions like "Why do I exist?" "Is the world evil?" and just live for the moment man.

Act as if what you do makes a difference, because it does. Never forget that dude.

[JCMsergox]

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I don't know how to help you. If you have any real life friends, schedule some gaming sessions with them, always cheered me up.

Yeah, video games have always been my escape. Seeing how I'm going through almost the same thing in terms of depression, even just playing a mission or 2 in Halo or a matchmaking game, it somehow makes me forget about it, and focus more on the game.

[Rigel]

St. Anger's around his neck...