I'll be real: the biggest reason I'm a Christian is based purely on fear and guilt. If I denounced Christianity in-front of my parents, I fear it'll have an incredibly negative impact on my family life. stuff's been drilled into me since I was a kid, and I'm terrified stuffless of going to "hell", whether or not it exists, so I go with Christianity to try and maximize my chances of not going there. So don't take this as me trying to convince you of anything, and I humbly request that you respect the efforts I try to go to in order to justify this to myself to achieve some peace of mind. I wake up every day doubting and trying to justify my belief in Christianity.
And so I've come up with a few ways.
- I tell myself that the Bible was written by men. I believe a lot of these men were inspired by deities to write portions of this book, but I believe the book may have been exploited or inaccurate in many areas. The holy spirit does not have a pen, God himself did not write the holy book. So as far as human error goes, this allows me to dismiss most of the inaccuracies in the Bible that supposedly "disprove" Christianity. Surely God would understand the inquisitive nature of the humans he created, so criticism of the Bible shouldn't be too taboo.
- This also allows me to fit the Bible in alongside scientific research. You wont see me dismissing any scientific claims or discoveries as "devil science" or some bullstuff to try and maintain Christianity. Instead, I try and find a way to make it work. '7 days' to God doesn't have to mean 7 days to me. The creation of humans does not have to be *poof* suddenly we exist, I can totally get behind theories of evolution and natural selection. God wrote the universe in math at the fundamental, physical level. He may of fine-tuned it to allow the best circumstances for his progeny, but he still ultimately allowed nature to take it's course. We didn't HAVE to come from nothing.
- The way I justify this is: why are fundamental physical values exactly what they are? How come one light second is exactly 299792.458 kilometres? And not 299793 kilometres or 299791 kilometres? What was the reasoning behind such a hard-coded value, and how would this be beneficial to the existence of the universe or reality in general? Who put this value in place and why? This could be an indicator of intelligent design.
- Some other justifications are a bit romantic, like the intricacy and beauty of the universe itself. To me, for something as awe inspiring as a red hyper giant to exist in the same world where tiny insect communities exist on our planet in the form of ant mounds, some kind of intelligent design must have been utilized. The golden ratio and such. I don't really know how to explain it, but hopefully you can sorta understand what I'm talking about here.